Father, it is only myself I must forgive. I was mistaken when I thought there was another who harmed me and I thought I had to defend myself. Defense is an an attempt to attack You, as You create in perfect peace and will for me to do exactly the same, attack can only hurt me. It is only I who forgets this as I wait outside the Kingdom. We are your Kingdom, Father. There is no need to wait in darkness in a dream I made for what you have already given me. All that stands in my way is the cloud of nothingness I made. I will walk toward it today surrounded by the love which is Yours and mine forever.