Review by Bob Pajer

“The assumption (italics mine) of separation is the great darkness.” His words hit me like a blow to my gut, but before I could recover he continued on. “Then, you see, we have to find our way to God. The Greeks offer their way through their minds; the Pharisees offer theirs through external rules. This is Ophis’s chief trick—blind us to how close the Lord is, closer than breath: we’re in him, and he’s in us. Ophis deceives the nations by one lie—separation. Our joy”—his face lit up like the rising sun—“is to tell the truth, let the light shine—and persevere the tribulation of enlightenment.”

As with most of C. Baxter Kruger’s book, Patmos, this is revolutionary thinking. I grew up under the tutelage of Catholic teachers who would often say, trying to answer our questions, “its a mystery.” And I suppose we were comfortable with that because it was easier to proclaim there was no answer to the mysteries of faith, given the upcoming at the time Baltimore catechism test. Yet one wonders now why it was so difficult to tell us simply, we are Spirit, God is in us, we are in Him, in His mind. As John’s tells us. Statements of Truth might have saved us much tribulation. To this day I have the damnedest time believing I am not a body, but spirit. Or, that understanding the Trinity is possible. That understanding came about by seeing myself in it, along with everyone else as the Son. John speaks of being in Jesus, but I believe he means in Christ, just as Jesus led his life to prove.

Kruger’s book is filled with a new way of looking at the teachings of Jesus. Well not new actually. It seems to me John proclaims them very clearly in his Gospel. Yet these truths were certainly contrary to what we were taught at St. Jerome Elementary School. No one ever said about Jesus that he, as the Son, found God within His own mind, as he became Christ who now waits for his brothers and sisters to find exactly what he did. That the Trinity was God’s loving response to our mistakes upon coming here, and staying here, to follow the ego’s plan for salvation. Kruger does not say in his book, the Holy Spirit is God’s temporary Voice, to communicate to us God’s plan for our salvation, a plant that must even, as we see differently from the ego’s grand illusion, time. Our response to God’s plan of course is we have a better plan, the ego plan, which is not based on love but on grievance and resentment, as it is carried out by us in the world.

Kruger’s book involves a novel story of a 21st century person who visits the Apostle John exiled on the island of Patmos. Its a fascinating story which blends John’s Revelation and Gospel with an explanation of the Nicean Creed, as John would would come to understand that and hope we would finally understand his Gospel and live by it. The Apostle’s major concern is that the separation amongst us, at best an “assumption”, we really believe took place. How can we possibly separate from God’s will? We think we have in the Apostle’s time here, and in ours of course by believing God is somehow outside us, others are outside us, as we live in a body that isolates us from other bodies. This is of course is the “assumed” separation we think we accomplished, feel like there’s nothing else to take its place, have lost our unity with our Selves, with everyone who has come to this world along with our distance in time and space from our Source. Jesus’ first words of his prayer tell us this isn’t so. It is “Our Father” we seek in all we do mistakenly, yet feel guilty over it, blame another, or whole races of people, to scapegoat the very guilt we can never dismiss: the thought we did it and God is going to punish us when He finally catches up with us doers.

Although this is not sin, it is close to what Christians think of as original sin. Jesus came to us, not sent by His Father to die, but to teach us how to live, in joy, peace and happiness, under a loving Father. Separation is a dream, as are all the illusions we experience here, thinking we can oppose God, have a will separate from Him and in the process give up our inheritance which is happiness. God’s judgment is simply I love my Son. We have not changed God’s mind about us. We are the Kingdom, His Sons and Daughters, still in God’s mind safe, as we find ourselves waiting, waiting and waiting for God. He has never left us. There is nothing to wait for, only our own stubborn desire to remove God’s authority from Him and have it for ourselves. We will waken to what we truly are, our greater Self, Christ, one with our Father. I believe that is how John would describe our being here, as does Jesus.

Much of Kruger’s book is about John, as he questions Aiden, (our author,) who in the story as written finds himself transported to John’s cave on Patmos through a white light vision. The vision occurs at the door of his home. Once they meet, the two get along very well. They have interesting discussions about separation and what has occurred since John left us. The discussions between the two tell an exciting story that reflect our human story as Spirit here in this world. The time journey by Aiden and it seems time moment in John’s life, our century, superimposed into Saint John’s time is carefully crafted to be real. While it is told to help us in understanding John the Apostle, we become ready for salvation under God’s plan for salvation. (No matter what we think of ours, which is doomed to keeping us in hell.)
In a later chapter, John adds fire to the revolutionary thinking. Augustine comes up in the conversation between he and Aiden. When John learns of Augustine, here is what John says about him: ‘If he believed that we are separated from Jesus,’ “St. John said carefully”, ‘and if he, as you said, is the Father of your Western tradition, then his ideas led the West to exhaustion, no matter how much he loved and knew Jesus.’ Of course, John has the upper hand, he really did know Jesus in the flesh. John goes on to say, ‘Perhaps it was through the ideas he passed on that the deepest log in your beaver dam was put in place. But do not fear; the Holy Spirit always works to redeem our blunders.’ The beaver dam is a reference to one of Aiden’s dreams, symbolizing our blocked consciousness when it comes to our understanding God, and our very blocks to Love. Blocked further by the punishment we bring on ourselves for our “sins”, in place of the pure love God has for His children, no matter what nonsense he is up to, and his final judgment: we are as He created us and He has never not loved us, His will for us is only perfect happiness, and that has never not been so. I would say, God just does not do sin and punishment. We do. And it is our log jam. It is a masterpiece of the ego, leading to death. John says later that Jesus would not back down from his love for the Pharisees, no matter what they said or believed, bringing the message of forgiveness once again to us.

Kruger, an extraordinary scholar, struggles some in his dialogue with our Apostle from the past. For one, I think we need not complicate the Holy Spirit’s role and place in the Trinity. Adam made a fatal mistake, thinking we could separate from God. We assume we have. Although, because we are dealing with the only Mind in the universe, and as we think we make real. Still, that reality is not reality. God only possesses reality. His Son does as well of course. However, we don’t think as God’s Son. While truly that is what we are, we delude ourselves in an impermanent made up world we think is real. In Truth, we merely dream a dream of separation. God cannot be separated from, for God is cause. We His effect. Cause and effect cannot be separated. Nothing can put that relationship asunder. This is not a wedding, which can only occur in our dream as a preferential, or special relationship. In fact there is no such thing as a relationship separated from God’s, in Reality. There is just One, our unity with God in God’s mind, from which we have never left. The Holy Spirit is here with us because of Jesus full understanding and perfect consciousness of Union with God, as he took on our only reality, the Christ, our true Self. Our false self is what we operate from in this dram of separation. God is the only reality, which creates the union we seek. There is none other. That reality is One. The Holy Spirit understands this, understands the ego self, and knows God, for He is God’s Voice for us, our only Teacher, along with Jesus, with one additional role, taking us home according to God’s plan. Once we return to what we have never left we will be One with God and the Holy Trinity will be, well, just Holy.

To all who come here, save Jesus and God knows how many others, that doesn’t seem to be a blessing at all. Out of fear, we hold onto guilt for what we think we have done. We resist within the dream as this guilt strikes terror in our will we think we can make up separate from God’s will. What should I, or would I do in God’s loving mind? Oneness, as it can only be, God’s love for His Son, can be our largest of all fears, because it is so threatening to our egos. The ego does not die easily. The ego’s grand scheme is filled with logic and under its thought system, foolproof. Thank heaven its not “God-proof!”, as Jesus says in A Course in Miracles. Well, after all it is made up, not created, although in the Mind of God, because there is no other place. Which is why it is but an illusion. Nothing real can exist in God’s mind outside of God’s own creation, the Kingdom of Love, all encompassing with no opposites.

The Holy Spirit will serve His purpose here as our Corrector: The return of God’s Son to Out Father, through holy awakening. There is only One God.  We will accept what we cannot change:  this truth.

Questions about this review can be directed to Bob Pajer at this Blog.

I received this book free from the author and/or publisher through the Speakeasy blogging book review network. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR,Part 255.



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