I Searched and Never Found You

——until upon a day we found ourselves together.

Thus, I can not lose you. Nor, will we ever lose ourselves.

You were always there to be here, as God unites all in His Creation, just as It is, by Creation!

And there’s no way to project what is forever for all, to all. As an extension of love It is never yielding to the meddling madness of our minds.

We await only our return to the Power, so freely given, yet Ignored in my ignorance. This Power’s protection is my effort not to block it. But extended, It fully encompasses the whole journey of my everlasting love. It goes nowhere and has no opposition. just requiring my stillness in the Heart of God.

Let us be holy together, just as we are. We need change not one thing. For His Will is done in this One heavenly joining, a thing too that has never not been, nor will ever not be.

Tugging, pulling, pushing, prying, pausing, protecting, parrying — thinking these need be, as I steal from time that never is — these being only the shaky ground in which I’ll fall to old ideas of the “love” I have learned so wrongly to fear, not It, but my making of It. And now I’d rather learn each day to think otherwise.

Love needs not my guidance.

It does need my acceptance.

I cannot give what I deny I have. Lovely, it’s my time to deny this denial: For we, you and I, have all.”

I am here to hear, and heed Love’s clarion call, by moving away from what that call is not.

It’s time to wash my hands and keep them away from my face. Maybe where a mask.

Where Were You

I Searched and Never Found You

——until upon a day we found ourselves together.

Thus, I can not lose you. Nor, will we ever lose ourselves.

You were always there to be here, as God unites all in His Creation, just as It is, by Creation!

And there’s no way to project what is forever for all, to all. As an extension of love It is never yielding to the meddling madness of our minds.

We await only our return to the Power, so freely given, yet Ignored in my ignorance. This Power’s protection is my effort not to block it. But extended, It fully encompasses the whole journey of my everlasting love. It goes nowhere and has no opposition. just requiring my stillness in the Heart of God.

Let us be holy together, just as we are. We need change not one thing. For His Will is done in this One heavenly joining, a thing too that has never not been, nor will ever not be.

Tugging, pulling, pushing, prying, pausing, protecting, parrying — thinking these need be, as I steal from time that never is — these being only the shaky ground in which I’ll fall to old ideas of the “love” I have learned so wrongly to fear, not It, but my making of It. And now I’d rather learn each day to think otherwise.

Love needs not my guidance.

It does need my acceptance.

I cannot give what I deny I have. Lovely, it’s my time to deny this denial: For we, you and I, have all.”

I am here to hear, and heed Love’s clarion call, by moving away from what that call is not.

It’s time to wash my hands and keep them away from my face. Maybe where a mask.

 

Being Alone Or Not

Our minds share all the power there is in the universe.  When we think, and we do all the time, we share.  That is the power of mind we usually know nothing of.  The Power of mind is always with us, never lets us be, and being created for us, from one Source, we cannot leave it.  This is because we are truly an idea in our Source’s mind, have never left It, and never will.  A nice way to express this is in the world’s terms, is to call this Source, Our Father, or Mother.  Some say God, Creator, Supreme Being.  There are many more Names we have.  They are all the same and none really identify this Power, other than by some form of internal direction. We seem to know we live in this world with a Loveing Father, or Mother, as we choose to think.  We can think otherwise, but not without suffering.

We are children of Love.  We are children of chaos when this is not true for us.  Such is the Great Power’s all encompassing force in our lives.

We  come here to search for our Source, although that is disguised in other forms, mostly mistaken for how we think of this Power, or insist on not thinking of such a power in our lives.   We are the only species on earth that searches for its source or their parent in the world’s terms.  All we do here is all about this one thing, finding this Source,

Yet our Source has never left us, but believe we left It. That does not on the surface seem too much of a problem because for many of us, we set out on our own insisting we are after all autonomous.  Our loving Parent has been hidden from us by our own making, as are our problems.  As we plunder the very land we make and the other beings with whom we reside here, our brothers and sisters.  In one thought.  Important is we cannot do anything that would change the Mind of Our Parent, wherein we, our seemingly separate minds reside, still as One,  just as its has always been, is now and forever will be.

You are free to think as you wish, or think of the thought of destruction that appears before us.  Or the loving world that stands just behind what we think we see.

Which thought will be real for us? We are  not alone in our minds, seeming to be made so tiny by our own opinion. Yet every thought will be either a connection or a dis-connection.  A loneliness or a connectedness.  Love or hate.  Heaven or hell.  God is or God isn’t.  We cannot serve two masters.

Thought is powerful.  And while we can choose as we wish,  for the thought we want, or what we appear to not want.  We “see” error and make it a “real” thought.  We can do what we wish with that power, but we all need to find the thought withnin us that clearly and inevitably tells us, we can’t leave. And believe it to be Truth; or deny it followed by the pain we make of our thinking.  We are never alone.  Yet, given the real power of our minds, If we think we are, we are.

God never leaves God’s children.  Chaos or not.  God is Love, a thought we’ve heard what seems like forever now.  We need to listen to this thought today.  This is a call for love by a Parent who knows nothing else, and will never allow us to go on thinking there’s something else.

We need to listen to this call and stop being the angry children of chaos.  We are in truth, the loving children of God.  We never leave our Source, because a Loving Parent never leaves Its children.   Thoughts are powerful because they originate where the Answer is placed, in God’s Mind.

Let us think today, we are never alone.  The instruction manual will follow!

 

 

All Meetings Are Holy Encounters

I Searched and Never Found You

——until upon a day we we found ourselves together.

Thus, I can not lose you.  Nor, will we ever lose ourselves.

You were always there to be here, as God unites all in His Creation, just as It is, by Creation!

And there’s no way to project what is forever for all, to all. As an extension of love It is never yielding to the meddling madness of our minds.

We await only our return to the Power, so freely given, yet I ignore in my ignorance.   This Power’s  protection is my effort not to block it.  But extended, It fully encompasses  the whole journey of my everlasting love. It goes nowhere and has no opposition. just requiring my stillness in the Heart of God.

Let us be holy together, just as we are. We need change not one thing. For His Will is done in this One heavenly joining, a thing too that has never not been, nor will ever not  be.

Tugging, pulling,  pushing, pausing, protecting, parrying — thinking these need be, as I steal from time that never is — these being only the shaky ground in which I’ll fall to old ideas of the “love” I have learned so wrongly to fear, and now rather learn each day to think otherwise.

Love needs not my guidance.

It does need my acceptance.

I cannot give what I deny I have.  Lovely! it’s my time to deny this denial:  For we, you and I, have all.”

I am here to hear,  and heed Love’s clarion call, by moving away from what that call is not, through forgiveness.

It’s time to wash my hands and keep them away from my face.

Forgivness – Walking the Path to Conscious Contact With God as we Understand God — A Three Day Workshop

This website is a work in progress at the moment.  We are hoping you will find it helpful in deciding if you want to join us in the workshop, on line or in person, beinginning in the Fall of 2020.  Bob Pajer, BA in Psychology, National Institure of Public Affairs,

Fellow,  Ford Foundation Fellow, Fellow, Graduate School of Public Affairs, University of Washing, and Ann Marie Stanley, BA and Lecturer

Are you puzzled by thoughts of new or repeated thoughts of resentment or un-forgiveness. Do you wonder why it’s seems so difficult to get over the anger toward someone, a stranger or someone you are really close to?  Have you ever wondered just why to can’t stay in the moment, where you could see happiness; why the past seems so enticing, anger seems so justified at the moment, why the future is at times so bleak?

The reason for these problems for us is we are jusitifying our past to frame a future of the unknown that came seem quite scarry.  And if you just might be doing this right in the middle of your sobriety, or perhaps even a meeting you find it almost impossible to stop.  Like drinking, an important way.  Why do we ever rob ourselves of peace now buy fantizing about a past?  To make us dred the futhre, which is the ego’s major goal.  and believe me it knows exactly how to do this, pitifally, cunningly, and masterfully — but only if we let it.  Justifying one ownce of anger, turning to a resentment, robs us off all serenity.  Those in recover cannot stay there with on-going resentments, or un-forgiving thoughts.  It is why the Big Book tells us clearly, resentments are the number one issue of alcoholics in sobriety.  And it is in sobriety we take the first drink.

Do you wonder why forgivness seems to not work at times — after you have forgiven what you think is the problem with a person, institution or situation?  Do you think forgiveness doesn’t “work?”  Or, is there hope in the Steps to lead you straight on to their major acccomplishment in us:  forgiveness of our dark past in God’s hands.  As Jesus says in response to his disciples regarding this quesiton:  “Forgive seven times seventy.”  What does he mean?

This is a workshop for members of Alcholics Anonymous, practicing or beginning the practice of the Twelve Steps of recovery.  Its goal is learning how to achieve “conscious contact with the God” through the God of our understanding.  While the goal will put a smile on your face, a quickend gate in your walk, eyes that twinkle with joy — the goal of this workshop is clearly to demonstrate these natural affects of the Steps — you will see very clearly the primary goal will be to “bear witness to God’s love, and way of live.” Something we all share in recovery and find all we can do with these great gifts is to give them away.  When you finally learn how to give over and over you will find love and the conscious contact and understanding of God you are seeking.

 

A Loving Thought No. 10

Father, let me fix my eyes now on my desire to turn my eyes from all appearances before me here. Let there be no false god there to tempt me to turn away from not one moment in which I can see even the dark shadows of the un-past, the tiniest mistake of even a tiny mad moment denying me the opportunity to decide for truth once again. I behold the ugly, the hate, the mean spirit, the mask, the confusion, the severance—the legion of all that carry the heavy yoke of the untrue, so that I may see the Light in the darkening of Truth in my brother, as it is in me.

10-30-19. Bob Pajer

Truth is True

By Bob Pajer, based on an interpretation of Jesus’ words and my notes from A Course in Miracles

Truth is true.

Let it shine on me, through me, and to you.

I teach release and gladness. Or, I will teach sorrow and despair. Neither accepts a partial attempt. I need to be glad that we have been asked to teach the first, for that is what I will learn for myself. Should I decide to teach the other, that is what I will surely learn—of course to watch truth come again. For is truth relentless, and inevitable. It will never leave me in the darkness of my mistakes. We are blessed, as we bless.

Learn to be a happy learner—a really happy one. Who loves a sad teacher?

Be not content with nothing. You have all from All. Grab it and cling to it. It is your inheritance. You can find it unacceptable, but you cannot change it.

Truth is true. Its all there is. For it holds the key — light. The light has come. Don’t darken it with guilt, unless you wish to play God again, trying to convince all the Power there is that It is not salvation, but guilt is.

No form of human suffering fails to belie a guilty thought. That is because a guilty thought is an attack on God, and further separation. And when we try to attack God, or one of God’s children, the same mistake, we affirm our insanity, which is we think we separated from God—the impossible. For that one thought we invite our own suffering. Not liking suffering very much, we will blame someone, or blame ourselves. A vicious cycle dearly loved by the ego.

I am the decision maker in my time here in this world I made. The decision for guiltlessness is mine, as is the deciding for guilt. When I decide for guiltlessness, it is mine. Once mine, I must give it away to keep it.

The value of all this I just said is my restoration to sanity — learning to teach only God’s lessons here in this world, now. God teaches us. All things are lessons He/She would have us learn. Not to worry about things I don’t understand. More will be revealed, as I decide to let in what i already know to be true.

Let me bring peace. As a matter of fact it is why I’m here. Actually, the only reason I’m here. If I think this is not so, I am out of alignment with the Will if God.

I’m deciding something in every second in time, including time itself. It is my power to do so. “God, the world was a poor decision, as You know. “Don’t worry, “ God says, “That mistake and all mistaken decisions are corrected the instant they are made—for everyone involved, by Truth. My Will. My Voice. My Love.”

When I attack a brother or sister I will instantly believe attack on me is inevitable. This is the ego’s law, coming from it’s laws if chaos. Truth will not allow attack in any form whatsoever. Peace will always abide in God’s law, the only law there is.

When I judge someone, condemning myself or another for what appears to be right or wrong, I usurp God’s authority, God’s authorship of creation. Or, mistakenly try. God does judge. But only as follows: “Behold my Children, in whom I am well pleased. You are as I created you.” Unless we believe this, now, we will continue to search, until we learn there us no search where upon we will find what we are looking for, as we look on our own, without God.

“Father, I am here only to be truly, helpful. How do You want me to see this situation, accepting what I am, Love!?”

Replace darkness with light. You can. Just ask “What is Your will for me, Father.” You will recognize your will.

Darkness has no power, other than in your perception, which retains the power of choice until we are able to see. See there is no choice, for love excludes all choices. And God is love.

As you grow in Holy Perception, and you will, it will become more and more, impossible to see or dream of darkness.

Guiltnessness forms my invulnerability, beyond form.

God is the only Cause.

The causeless cannot be. When I fully learn this one thing I will know everything, for knowledge is true.

Deny what is causeless. That’s a worthy use of something I have well practiced, denial.

I cannot make decisions on my own. Whatever I decide I decide for every one. Every decision you make is for the Sonship.

Guilt is not a virtue. Nor is shame, which is a form of guilt, which is fear. Don’t listen to your ego on this subject, nor on anything for that matter.

If you seek love outside yourself you can be certain you are perceiving hatred within, and are afraid of it. My dear brother/sister, there is nothing out there. We are in here together in union with Our Father.

Beyond Seeing – A Psalm

I seem to know. Yet I don’t. Knowledge is protected from my egoistic mind. I think sometimes when I feel like I’m on top of things I make up, I’m surely not. When I see myself in poverty, however, I am likely to welcome Truth. My heart soars at the idea my having is my very being, always in Your Heart, Father: The Kingdom, now. My life is only sad and unmanageable when I believe stuff I made up without You, Father. I have made a world of sin and guilt. You, dear Father have created a Heaven where I’m forever welcome. It’s not a place I think I can play my ego’s games and prove to my self, that at its hand I die, not a place I can play the game of deprivation: sickness, attack and littleness, determined to prove at least one thing: that I see. I Imagine, I think I actually know through the seeing of eyes that don’t see. Knowledge cannot be in the hands of a life that thinks it sees with eyes that cannot see; ears that cannot hear. My solution to this is always to sacrifice Life. I will willingly die for one sacrifice. Death, dear Father. This is not your will! You will only that Your Son live, as You created me. Quiet my mind, Father that I may hear your calling—Your ancient song you sing to me with every breath I take and every encounter I have with a brother or sister. Thy Kingdom come. Thy will be done. Let this song be my aria to all my my brothers and sisters here. We know not what we say, yet I do know this one thing: When I listen I can hear beyond our voices, we sing the greatest melody we cannot help but sing here and in heaven: we are One, in unity with our Holy Father. Amen.

Bob Pajer

8-15-19

Book Review: Stations of the Cosmic Christ, by Matthew Fox and Bishop Mark Andrus. Review by Bob Pajer

Mathew Fox is surely one of the greater thinkers in our times.  His ideas are forward, bold, fearless, searching and inspiring.  “Stations of the Cosmic Christ” by Fox and Bishop Marc Andrus won’t disappointment in any of these lofty achievements, nor Joanna Macy’s cover comment on the book, “…It celebrates the sacred at the heart of the universe.”

There is no universal theology, but there is a universal experience Jesus tells us in A Course in Miracles.  I’m sure “Stations of the Cosmic Christ” demonstrates this message from Jesus.  Christ is in us, all of us.  No matter what our eyes or ears seem to tell us.  Trapped in an ego mind, however, which is what the made up world is, is aimed at the maintaining of the bondage of self.  We really have no chance of making the world a better place by hoping that somehow we’ll finally get it right doing the same things over and over again, after which God in cosmic love demonstrates again and again: man has no will or mind, or anything really, separate from its Source, God if you will.  We are one and only as One do we awaken to the connection we have in Great Unity with God.  Christ is the path to this, and the only path, albeit under other names.  Jesus came to tell us and demonstrate this one truth, ever reminding us there’s no way to God except through Christ, our true identity.  His message also tells us this practically achieved by us the oneness of the forgiving thought, upon letting go of all un-forgiving thouths.   

One of the adventures of Fox’s book is that we are invited to believe in the Oneness of the Spirit in us, Christians call Christ. The name is not what is important, but the function of our lives in relation to it is.  Our brothers and sisters in this place we seem to live all have the same interest and because this is irrevocably true, my interests cannot be seen as more or less than yours. 

There is a truly remarkable Martin Luther King quote in “Stations of the Cosmic Christ” which I will carry with me always as a reminder about what is true in this world, often different than what I see: 

“Evil may so shape events that Caesar will occupy a palace and Christ a cross, but that same Christ arose and split history into A.D. and B. C., so that even the life of Caesar must be dated by his name.  Yes the arc of the moral  universe is long, but it bends toward justice.  There is something in the universe which justifies William Cullen Bryant in saying, ‘Truth crushed to earth will rise again.’”  p. 98

And a later quote by Buckminster Fuller:  “…The Ascension event is reminding us that the Christ presence is felt in the furthest reaches of the universe.  We are not just dwellers in our little villages on the modest planet; we share in the cosmic events and we carry the Cosmic Christ within us — the very ‘fullness of the one who fills the universe in all its parts.”   p. 144.  Thus the forgiveness Jesus teaches us is a cosmic event. 

Enjoy this book.  It is a masterpiece in our readiness for return to the Kingdom and not to dwell on our identity with religions’ negative  interpretation of the crucifixion, but to live the message of promise:  Viewing Jeus’ Resurrection in our lives through Christ.    

I received this book free from the author and/or publisher through the Speakeasy blogging book review network. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR,Part 255.

Book Review: The Book of Revelation, (A NewTranslation) by Michael Straus, Illustrations by Jennifer May Reiland

Reviewed by Bob Pajer, NCTM, WSCTM, NIPA

It is of course difficult to say what John’s Book of Revelation is really about . Take your pick among those who have studied it.  My guess the Gnostics have it correct, only because of my own Gnostic leanings.  I and they  say that Jesus was a loving messenger.  His message is of love because he professes that only, his love, and the love of all of us comes from our creation.  I believe he heard only One Voice in his life here, a feat not many achieve as yet.  He preaches that we are as God created us.  God is love and therefore so perfectly equally are we.  Those references of the Oneness of love and the definition of God as Love can be found throughout A Course in Miracles.  Being a student of the Course I find Revelation to be difficult to understand because of the Courses’ references of itself to be the second coming of Jesus.  Jesus tells us this in the Course. The Jesus who teaches us we are One, as Christ, in union with God.  The best way it seems to place who God seems to be is by the two words: Our Father.  Oliver Wendall Holmes said that is all he needed to know about religious belief. 

A Course in Miracles takes this up with its main teaching:  to know who you are, see all your brothers and sisters as Christ, the One Son, the Sonship and only see him that way.  That in itself will tell you who you are, what we are all searching for here, being plagued by the thought we left Our Father for a world we continue to make up.  and fail to achieve peace doing it.  Who are we?  Yet our egos take us all around the battlefields we create to not find out who we are.  The world we appear to live in is not made to discover who God is as our Source.  As a matter of fact it is make by its makers to do just the opposite.  It is beleaguers us.  It is the root of all suffering here because it is based on unforgivenes,  by a whole people asking the question not to be answer, only to lead to more questions. The ego has no answer to anything, Jesus tells us in the Course in Miracles in his words, knowing they touch the truth in us that God put there.  Lots of questions and no answers.  Of course it will never have an answer to anything because it is a lie.  Lies are certainly not about truth.  Truth is true.  Lies remain, well, lies, much as depicted in Revelation.  The ego lives as a lie itself seemingly within us.  It has no intention of losing its place in our minds which are its hostage, never having us wander too far to realize we would be far better off by being host to God.  Jesus is host only to God.  He does not listen to the ego. Most everyone breathing in this world feels like a terrible thing has occurred:  separation from Our Father, a betrayal beyond words and thoughts, always there within us waiting for the day to strike out and finally create life. Guilt was born here, followed by death and the unknown. 

As to this new translation of Revelation, I can not tell you anything about its translation.   The translation is acceptable in my opinion, which of course is limited by my lack of knowledge of the subjects the author lays before us.  I find Revelation difficult to read in any form.  It is an ugly story, wasting one’s time in reading it.  The world is sad, old, and a tired place. It stumbles on with shear will power, coming from the mind of God which who is One.  After all we are the Power God created, but no to misbehave and kill each other.  No powers can exist before God’s Power. When men and women think they can oppose this with a separate will and power, we go to sleep and beat the hell out of each other.  Yes, “we”.  God’s children are not separated from one another.  That is the meaning of the clear statement of Jesus: 

Mark 10:9

What therefore God hath joined together, let not man put asunder.

King James Version (KJV)

I do not think Jesus was referring necessarily to marriage in saying this, but to all men and women.  We are eternally joined.  There is no separation among us.  Although the ego, we, decided otherwise and made ourselves into bodies, trying to make each a separate mind.  Bodies are not minds.  Minds are forever joined in oneness with God as their Father. 

When we oppose God we sleep, just as God puts Adam asleep in the Bible and never wakes him up.  So let Revelation be.  It keeps biblical scholars and theologians busy.  The ego loves to study itself, but it does not tell us annoyingly about the everlasting love Jesus has and always will have for every “single” one of us.  And he waits for us to enter the Kingdom with him.  To join him and become together as the Christ, the only Son of God. 

Lastly, I find the authors’ use of sexual activity appalling in the pictures throughout the book.   I could only interpret this as our way of thinking about sex.  It’s the one big sin, the one we can feel most guilty about.  Which is all nonsense.  The ego thrives on the insanity of guilt over our separation from Our Father.  Sexual sin is one its favorite forms of making us feel the guilt, which is why we neglect and treat each other with disdain:  judgment, condemnation and hatred, leaving little room for the forgiveness we must practice in the face of any form of separation.  Sex fits into all this as a false god.  There is no order of separation.  Most of what drives us to remain separated is from other faults, not sex.  Separation either is or it isn’t.  Our spirits, however can not separate.  We think we are separate, nonthless, that we in fact did it, and then feel guilty and enter a deep sleep in order to play out our true wish to separate. 

I cannot find any salvation or Atonement thinking in Revelation, nor in the pornographic material Jennifer My Reiland presents throughout the book, except the focus on bodies, which are separation itself.      

 

I received this book free from the author and/or publisher through the Speakeasy blogging book review network. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR,Part 255.