“I still have a tendency to think too well of myself and to pretend to be more than I really am. Am I always in danger of becoming conceited just because I’m sober?” Hazelden, Thought For the Day.

The real problem is I think to little of myself. Am I a child of God? Of course! Has God given me all because God loves me and everyone else as well? Yes, no matter what I think or do! If it were anything less, would that not mean God is indivisible or has favorites? Or, that He needs to hold on to parts of His love to maintain His power as One who has all power? Or, to reward some, and punish justice. When I think I must prove my false self, am I not diminishing God’s power in me? My ego always speaks on behalf of my littleness or grandiosity. And it always speaks first, in my mind at least. Seeing my self as less than, seeing myself inferior to anyone is a separation thought, which leads me to think I am less than, lacking in something. Although I frequently don’t know what that is. Searching for whatever it is is a part of the human condition, “search and do not find,” which has nothing to do with God. He knows where all His children are. He also knows His abundance fully shines on everyone. It is up to each and every one of us to accept it and let it shine through us.

“I am as God created me. I’m not a body, I am free.” A Course in Miracles.”

Book Review: Finding God in the Body, by Benjamin Riggs. Review by Bob Pajer

People on planet earth who read this book and practice in their own lives the author’s beliefs, will make the world we live in a better place. Benjamin Riggs writes about kindness, goodness and love. It is about how to live one’s life with regard for others, how to present oneself to the world with generosity and a giving spirit. I would recommend that anyone who regards these qualities as the ones we need most right now, as we relate to others and how we gain love for ourselves read this book. It will be helpful in understanding that living life according to the principles Jesus set down for us, those ideas that saved him as he saved the world are the path to our accepting the Atonement for our selves here through forgiveness, forgiveness of ourselves to begin with. This message is brought to us in this book with great care by the author. It is, for a good part, a scholarly work, and sometimes difficult to read because of it. There are so many ideas that are upside down from the ideas the world presents to most of us it takes time to absorb the different ways of living it presents us with.

Riggs describes God consciousness as an intimate experience, a personal presence that is intimate with God and others, in the moment, now. This might just transform my own experience into one that brings me closer to God as I understand God. Perhaps you as well. His message is mostly experiential in a profound way throughout the book. Although he slips from this into judgment of others and other sources without evidence for his findings. That’s a flaw, that seems to contradict his whole message. One we all suffer from. Judging without the possibility of knowledge in an ego driven world. While Briggs seems to treat the ego with some impunity, I think the ego is not a nice thing, for it is born of our fear, not of God.

A substantial aspect of our proclivity to judge one another is our misunderstanding of others. Well, we really can’t understand others, although we should try. Without knowledge its almost impossible. I believe we can believe the truth about others, as long as we do not also believe that truth is true in split minds, trying to live the truth we are separated from one aother. Which we are not. And as long as we, our egos hold onto this insanity, there will be no knowledge here. Would God truth knowledge with a an ego dream that believes we have separated from Him and feel horribly guilty about it, and want to foist this guilt off onto our brothers and sisters because in our selves we can’t stand it. Guilt in the mind system the ego devises must be transferred or hopefully transcended. We work at that these two ideas with the intensity of the dying hoping for just one more breath.

So I don’t agree the ego is a good thing, as Briggs intimates. Only what God creates is good. Although we can get pretty sure and pretty confident we’re right, about anything. This shows up in our inability for so many of us to tolerate other religious beliefs, as Briggs talks about. We believe somehow theology is universal. Yes, Briggs fails to see, universal in our opinion we are right. But the world we live in would always seem to rather be right than be happy, which is our true state of mind created by God. Who is Himself happy I supposed because he knows we are just playing with dreams and one day we will awaken to truth and dispel the insane idea we could possibly separate from Him or Her. Riggs suffers from the idea that one day the world will be a better place. Perhaps not. We will one day see God’s will be done. His will is unconditional Love and its only Life. Truly the only Life that exists, the giving away of love.

At least to some extent in his writing, our author seems to be aware of all this. Yet he dismisses what he says by allowing himself to think God resides in our bodies. That’s a huge mistake, I believe. As there is no body. God is eternal, at that is all that will ever exist. Fortunately, we are in His Mind, which is our eternal home. We have no other. The old saying the body is the temple of God or the Holy spirit is a mistaken ego thought. Which must and will be corrected. God in the form of the Holy Spirit, which has no more form than God, is in the temple of our relationships, our only connection with one another in this world, as each blossoms with His work, which is forgiveness. Jesus taught that, as he taught the few alcoholics who formed the only truly spiritual healing ever to set foot in this world. One might wonder why Jesus gave this miracle to AA. Well, perhaps because alcoholics are all crazy enough to need to believe it. The pain of that disease is awful. Really awful and one doesn’t get to die right away, nor, because of the illness can lay hands on truth very easily. It truly takes the grace of God to bring addicted people to their senses enough to know they have any sense at all. Jesus is in charge of miracles.

Although Briggs speaks highly of AA, he doesn’t seem recognize that it is its basis in universal experience that has made it so successful. Furthermore, if he understood that, he, perhaps, would not criticize “new age philosophy” such as A Course in Miracles, without explaining why. The world believes a universal theology is somehow possible. It’s not. Only universal experience is possible.

While Riggs it would seem, would like to cast Jesus’ teaching in a “new light”, there’s nothing new about it. It is in our mass miscasting of Jesus teaching that has led us astray, except for teachers like Martin Luther King, Richard Rohr, and Michael Finlay (who sees so much truth in Miester Eckhart’s writing,” to name a few. Jesus teaching has never changed, it has indeed been really misunderstand. In fact we have to change his teaching to follow it, it seems. Riggs is right in exposing this misunderstanding, and what it appears to have have done to our world today. We have a reactionary teaching of Jesus, a direct opposite of what he taught. As correct as Riggs is about this, he doesn’t go far enough in my opinion. Christian teachings today are closer to truth than most of the teaching of Rome given to us over the last roughly 1500 years. The most important thing that Riggs does teach is the presence of God within us. However, Jesus taught that for certain, yet Jesus also says that while this is clearly the truth, we don’t ever get it unless we practice his most prominent lesson: forgiveness. Which is not what the what we think forgiveness is. The ego of separation took care of that soon after Jesus taught this most important of all things, the very reason why we’re in this world, to forgive (love) one another. He says this of course in his wonderful commandment, “Love one another as I have loved you.” Which we don’t do. His love for us includes the essence of real forgiveness, the only reflection of God’s love here in this world, and our expression of how this is carried out. Here. Jesus also says, the only way to God is through forgiveness here. Yet it is the one thing we most don’t seem to get. In fact we have changed the meaning of forgiveness to the point it is difficult to even understand what this word ever meant. Why does Jesus dwell so much on it? Jesus meant by it what he did in the cruxifixction and resurrection. Which is an extreme example he does not ask us to repeat. And few, perhaps none of us, want to go there. Even though he never asked that we do. Our justice system, in its absence of love, is a good example of how we don’t do forgiveness here. Would Jesus imprison someone for a mistake that has already been corrected by the Holy Spirit, and then advocate killing that person as just punishment?

Briggs, almost gets the meaning of the crucifixion. But its the kind of thing Jesus teaches, which is unequivocal. He did not die on the cross. He came here to overcome the idea of death. He did c certainly redeem us though resurrection. While Riggs refers to such things as “myth” that may be, but it doesn’t matter. The story is true even in the duality of the world’s beliefs. Its not in heaven’s terms. Nothing like that can happen in God’s world. Only here could a myth reach our minds with such impact. The truth however is true. Jesus did not die. His, Our Father, did not send him to be sacrificed for our sins, whatever that means. “How could God do that to His beloved Son?” and old question of the thinkers among us. We always must bring truth into the realm of duality here in this world because separation itself is a duality of great value to us, and with far greater cost and sacrifice in letting it go. We are separated because we think we are. Convinced of it. We don’t recognize the fact that, as Riggs clearly tells us, separation is not possible. He could have said in his book, that that means the world is not real. We make it up, it is not God’s creation. God does not create the unreal. We spend lifetimes here trying to make the unreal real, however. Repeating the same beliefs and actions over and over

Un-forgiveness is the fundamental decision we make for all the suffering in this world. The great mistake is we can’t forgive ourselves for such things as slavery, killing native Americans, etc. and etc. Christians are the most violent people to have set foot in the history we know. Ask anyone who was present at Wounded Knee. Christians carried out that atrocity. Christians killed over 6 million Jews. Look at this from above the grounds of guilt we all feel and try to transfer onto Muslims.

Guilt is a terrible human insanity. We cannot stand it. It is insane and all of us deep down realize that at a level we are almost never willing to share. That is what Jesus came to take away. To tell us “don’t feel guilty”, it cannot be true because it opposes God’s power.

So while Riggs may be telling us God is within, which is true. However, I must say he falls short. As I read the his book I thought much further about Jesus’ primary message for all of us. First of all, we cannot recognize that unless we see all of our brothers and sisters as they truly are. Forgiveness is nothing more that seeing truth. One truth. Not a universal theology, but a universal experience. The heart of the meaning of AA’s Twelve Steps, which Riggs refers to, but doesn’t really seem to fully understand them, at least as he shares with us what he thinks they mean. The Steps are are about forgiveness. Jesus’ primary concern for us.

Furthermore, Briggs seems to think we can change the world to make it a better place. Yet the essence of Jesus teaching is that this world does not exist. It is an illusion we think is real, and spend most of our lives trying to prove this so. Jesus would have none of it. Forgiveness is a reflection of God’s love here. Our salvation comes from our forgiveness of ourselves and then passing that on to everyone else. Jesus says in A Course in Miracles, that forgiveness is knowing truth is true. And then forgiving everyone, including ourselves, in the sense that we forgive our brothers and sisters for what they did not do. Unless we understand we made the world and God did not we will never know that is we who are insane and not God.

I believe our merciful Father does not ask us to change this world because we can’t. The ego that makes it up will not change it into what we think it should be, because it can’t. We do have the means to see truth, however, that comes through practicing forgiveness here, and that must become for us exactly what that is: loving one another as he loved us. There are folks in this world who I’m sure are on this path, those who have come to be poor enough to realize having is being, worldly wealth can mean having nothing, and not searching for more of what we already possess. We can’t fit through the eye of the needle because we carry and are overburdened by our belief in illusion. For the most part we are good at switching illusions. That’s about it. And its not enough. The poor (poor spirit) have given this idea up and they don’t have to wait, for Jesus tells us in the Sermon on the Mount, “theirs is Kingdom.” There’s no waiting. Whoever they are have identified the Kingdom for those of us who are still working on it. So we can recognize we are the Kingdom, now and forever. This is an awakening, waiting for us in time that has never passed, to what we truly are. Jesus is the one who is waiting, by our side, showing us All has already given us all. There is nothing to want. Nothing to wait for. It is an awakening from our dream because God’s Voice has never left us. Just listen.
The subtitle of the book is “A Spiritual Path for the the Modern West.”

Far from agreeing with everything Riggs presents I agree with much of it. His interpretation of the Bible are beautifully written with an extensive understanding. His description of Jesus teaching, different than what is put forth my most scholars today, is almost in agreement with mine. I don’t think he goes far enough, however. Perhaps this is because of his theory that God is in the body. I cannot imagine anything being so far from Jesus’ teaching as this unfortunate misconception. I believe his message pushes truth away from us and Riggs never fully explains how he arrives at this proposition, although he does such admirable job of explaining through Biblical passages. Although, I believe even he did a better job of explaining this I could not disagree more. Bodies are neutral things we make, used to prove the ego is real, and then as we awaken to truth see they have no purpose but being a vehicle for the God’s Voice to speak to and show us how to relate to one another to recognize the truth. As a result of separation, which cannot be, we make up a body, materialize our false selves by covering them with skin. Its quite an impressive effect, although it lacks cause and cannot be. And it takes much energy to keep it going. Yet the Holy Sprit takes what we think we do and turns it into His mission: to bring us home. This is true even the egos’ masterpiece, the body. In a Course in Miracles, Jesus teaches us “I am as God created me, I’m not a body, I’m free.” I believe that. Yes, God is in everything, our bodies as well, but I must conclude that is because God does not dismiss what we do, just uses it to make restore us to sanity and freedom, which is sanity. One thing is certain in this regard, without the Holy Spirit’s direction, bodies are not free, no matter how much we paint our faces and present them as the grand work of our ego. Feathers and all, like a peacock setting out for his day in the world, one thought in mind. I leave for the reader to decide what that might be for. While underneath it all we hate what we make without God. Bodies are made as a defense against the truth. Which we spend a lot of energy doing here.

Riggs is close to discovering much about God’s plan for salvation as he describes his own journey toward salvation.

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A Course in Miracles

In February 1978 a friend gave me pamphlet. It’s title, A Course in Miracles, struck me as odd. It listed no author. This friend invited me to join him on a trip he had planned to New York City the following month to meet the people who had just published the Course described in the pamphlet, Helen Schucman and William Thedford. John Schmidt was my friend’s name. We were meeting at a coffee shop in Knoxville, Tennessee. John was a retired scientist from the Nuclear Center in nearby Oakride. I worked for the U.S. Civil Service Commusuon. I was there on business. 

While I declined attending the conference with him, I kept pamphlet and would pick it up from time to time over the next few years. Reading parts of it and then putting it back on my book shelf, where it still remains today. It is a very succinct description of the Course, probably written by Kenneth Wapnick, an early member of the small group who worked on getting the Course ready for publication. It was an interesting read and must have captured me somehow because soon afterward I started reading the book itself,  622 pages of what is called the Text, followed by 365 daily Lessons and A Manual for Teachers. Almost 40 years have gone by now I’m 83 years old, and rarely has a day passed since then that I have not done what I consider my daily work with the Course. I must say that to this day nothing in my life comes before this work. It has literally transformed my mind about my mind beyond what I could have ever imagined.

I understand and believe now this Course is Jesus’ second coming, fulfilling his promise to always be with us. Although he does not specifically say that in the Course it is, however, my belief.  The Course may be the greatest and most instructive non-dual approach to God written for the most part in the dual language of our ego. It is aimed at uncovering our core belief in separation as the ego would have it be and fully describes in our language just how God would have it be. 

All of my posts are centered on the Course as I understand it. Even my book reviews are written with the Course in mind. I have have received permission from the Foundation for a Course in Miracles, it’s publisher, to use the title “50miracle principles” as my blog title. 

Bob Pajer, Author


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For Thine is the Kingdom, the Power and the Glory

“Where is it, then? (The Kingdom of Heaven.). Author Jim Marion’s wonderfully insightful and contemporary suggestion is that the Kingdom of Heaven is really a metaphor for a state of consciousness; it is not a place you go to, but a place you come from. [1] It is a whole new way of looking at the world, a transformed awareness that literally turns this world into a different place.” From Richard Rohr’s posting today, The Wisdom Jesus:The Kingdom of Heaven

Tuesday, April 11, 2017


“For thine is the Kingdom, the Power and the Glory. In this resounding ending to the Lord’s Prayer, Jesus is telling us, yes you and me and everyone here on earth, in this ego-trance that makes up earth, that we are the Kingdom he speaks of. When I say this prayer in a group, I therefore look around me and catch the eye of all I can see in that moment and recite this part of the prayer with just that in mind. Brother, sister, you are the Kingdom of God. And you are the Power and Glory of God as you now return to your home you have never left. Heaven awaits just that to be Heaven. Bob Pajer

What Jesus Knows by Bob Pajer

He (Jesus) asked those timeless and deeply personal questions: What does it mean to die before you die? How do you go about losing your little life to find the bigger one? Is it possible to live on this planet with a generosity, abundance, fearlessness, and beauty that mirror Divine Being itself? From Richard Rohr’s Email: April 9, 2017.

These are questions Father Rohr poses as what Jesus would ask and comment on as he was here in this world telling us of a different world, one that we could hope for but not stay in the one we’re in while hoping we could be in that other world. The world we seem to be in holds nothing we want. The other holds everything. Jesus simple message is always that the way to transcend this world and live in God’s world is to leave this world mentally where we found it. There is nothing here that in anyway looks like God’s world, except that the Holy Spirit is without exception transforming us through forgiveness here: the practice of our own forgiveness of ourselves and others and His forgiveness of us, although there is no need for his forgiveness because He doesn’t condemn us and there’s no punishment for our mistakes here. Stating this we are already into a very kind of world that accepts these concepts completely. God’s world is nothing like what we think here, with our condemnation, judgment and vengeance as a part of just about all we do.

Let’s look at “die before you die.” When addressing this question, Jesus would mean that there is no death to begin with. He did not die on the cross, let alone come down here and do the mightiest reparation for our sins for us. He did come to take away the sins of the world. And he tells us he did this by showing us there’s no sin. No such thing as sin. We do make errors and mistakes. We are insane in thinking then God corrects them by punishment. No, they are corrected the instant we make them by the Holy Spirit in his work in the world. Make a mistake, its corrected. Moreover, a sin implies something has taken place that has more power than God, in order to take place. That cannot be. And the fact that mistakes are corrected is simply not what we think about them. As sin we think wrongly, think we did something bad and we need to make some kind of retribution. In our thinking, punishment is justified by a false fact that God condemns and we have to carry out the necessary next steps to pay for what we did. God doesn’t do that. We think we must, even to the extent that our correction by punishment is not enough. Sex offenders pay for the crimes and then are punished long after payment, which is a reflection of how we think about crime. It is never really corrected, just punished justifiably. Yet there can be no justification for anything that is absent of love.

The Holy Spirit sees the mistake and it is all over the instant we think we acted out our wrongmindedness. All other thinking leads to the ego’s final act of punishment, which is a belief in death. But without sin there is no death. We do leave our bodies at some point, but we can be alive when before and after we leave them. The innocent never die because it is only our impression of sin that tells us we die and go somewhere. Some believe we go to hell to carry our punishment beyond the grave. Others believe we go to pay for our sins in purgatory, once paid we are free. We are, however, going nowhere. Heaven is in the Mind that created us, exactly where we are. The guiltlessness in us, which is what we are in God’s mind, is perfectly opposite of death and suffering. We think we are guilty and therefore die. This has nothing to do with God’s creation, which only creates the eternal. We are as God created us and what He creates cannot die. Even Jesus closed his eyes on what we call life here. Yet he demonstrated that nothing in this world is capable of killing. “Thou shalt no kill means” mean thou can’t kill. For if killing were possible God would be other than God is. Which of course is exactly what we make God. The god that pursued Adam and kicked him and his wife out of the Garden is not God. When we feel guilty for what we think we did we get pretty crazy — and try to bring God along with us. It is pretty lonely without Him. Yet we are not without Him. Surely, we can think whatever we want, along with deciding whatever we want. None of that makes what we think or decide true.

Jesus message on the cross is we don’t die. While he surely closed his eyes, he didn’t ie and came among us after the crucifixion to prove it. He is still doing that. We are still clinging to death. He clings to us. We love death. He, God and the Holy Spirit love us. If you don’t believe we love death, go to the movies. Our made up world holds death as the ego’s final masterpiece of decption, its last ditch stand, its trump card, never to be given up.

You may wonder why it seems so real, death. The answer is we think with the whole power of God’s mind. The only Power there is in the universe. We can think wrongmindedly. But that does not mean what we think is real. Jesus did not die, nor do we. We are exactly like him, exactly as God created us. He has gone before as an older brother, waiting for his brothers and sisters to join him, us. Although, he would probably say that we already have. Its complicated for equivocal minds like ours. His message is unequivocal, however, because he hears only One Voice, God’s. Not that that Voice is not still in us. We are noisy mind’s trying to not hear it most of the time. Our work here in this world is to wake up and watch the show: the work of the Holy Spirit in us, and most important as we live in this world, in others. When Jesus said to love one another as he loved us, that is what he is talking about. To love means to see life as it truly is, as God created it. We can see this in others sometimes a lot easier by stating, “I see you as God’s perfect child,”, or as some religions instruct, “I salute the Christ in you,” no matter what the message is coming from the eyes that do not see, or the ears that do not hear.
“How do you go about losing your little life to find the bigger one?”

First, there is no little self or little life. Nothing exists outside of God’s creation. How could it? Without diminishing God’s power? Little lives don’t exist. They are a dream state of mind. God could never allow “littleness.” God wills for us otherwise, although there is no “otherwise” opposing God. As soon as we think there is a little life we fall to sleep and dream whatever we want. That is the world around you you made. God does not enter dreams and that is why it is foolish to think we can find God anywhere than where He is, in Heaven, where we are and have never left. Jesus so wisely says “Thy will be done in earth as it is in Heaven.” God’s will is not negotiable. Like Jesus’ mind, it is certainly not in anyway equivocal. Christ in union with us and God is the only non-duality there is. Jesus of course knows that perhaps more than anyone that comes here. His whole reason for coming is to tell us that, the good news. Our foolish thinking in a dream will never touch it. That is why in our insanity here we keep doing the same thing over and over, expecting a different result. This war will end all wars!. How is it possible for such a terrible mistake, acted out in opposition to God’s will to change God’s love for all of us. Because this is so, we (our ego’s) will never “find” anything. the ego does not even know what it is looking for. It’s motto, according to Jesus is, “Search and do not find.” We are susceptible to all kinds of conning, without God.

God’s will for us is grandeur, not littleness. We cannot make this happen because we, tied to our ego, can’t ask any questions that make any sense whatsoever. We are, therefore, completely incapable of planning our salvation. Fortunately, God has provided the Holy Spirit for us to follow, if we listen. Actually, it doesn’t matter if we listen or not. That’s just a choice we make, one that could make us more comfortable here; however, it is also a choice that could make us terribly uncomfortable. But one thing is certain, God’s will for us is perfect happiness. The ego has no idea of how to manage that state of mind. Once we recognize that we will give up our little minds in favor of what is.

We will “lose our littleness” by truth, nothing else. The Holy Spirit will transform our experience (perception) to such a degree that how we perceive everyone will be of the highest order, holiness, and at that point God will in an instant bring knowledge into our minds and what we see now in this world will be gone forever. That is Jesus’ teaching, through miracles of forgiveness, which can only bring truth into our minds to find its home there. God will take the final step in this process. Miracles, hope and work toward what we are have no place there because they have never not been there. Salvation is according to God’s plan, certainly not ours. It is a process by the way that has already taken place because our decision to separate from God (Genesis) has never taken place. Our thinking it real is our problem not God’s, although he always sees that His children are taken care of without question. That is the meaning of the parable of the Prodigal Son in the bible. It is and will work exactly the same, our journey of return to salvation. There will be no further arguments between what is right or wrong. The brother of this forgiven son will find not contradiction. The contradiction told in the Bible is us.

We will leave our insanity behind and never think again that it ever existed. God would not have His son live another second in pain. We still decide otherwise. We can’t “find” a larger self here in this world because the world we made is too insane to contain knowledge. God has not taken knowledge from us, nor truth, but out work at keeping the illusions we try to make real cannot house what is of God. The only way to God is here in this world, as we have chosen it, but just as Jesus said, it is transformed through forgiveness. Something we seem to forget about Jesus. We are so adept at closing off truth to defend our selves from it, we change the very meaning of the words he used for us. Forgiveness as we think we know it here is a travesty of God’s love. Yet real forgiveness is all we have left of the real concept of God’s changeless love for us. Forgiveness can never include condemnation for one thing. I have never met anyone here who thought this was true. However, the Holy Spirit understands everything about us and if we ask Him to teach us how to practice forgiveness, He will — as He goes about teaching us whether or not we ask. God never leaves His children to insanity. In this, we have no choice really. Yet things get a lot better when we consciously choose heaven instead of hell, for there is nothing in between the two.
Is it possible to live on this planet with a generosity, abundance, fearlessness, and beauty that mirror Divine Being itself?

This is like asking whether God’s will, will be done, or not. Jesus lived all these ways. And if he did, and he did, so can we. Jesus asks us to remember that he is no holier than anyone of our brothers and sisters here, but strongly reminds us never to think we are. It is his wonderful way of saying, we are part of the Trinity. There isn’t some mysterious concept out there involving 3 gods in one. No, there is One who has all Power, which is Jesus tells us the only Power there is and that Power is love. I think we hate the idea of love so much, we make up some mumbo jumbo about the Holy Ghost (as we used to call Him) to not understand God’s Love for us. Jesus makes so much sense to us because he demonstrated that, yes on the cross, but far more important through his resurrection. He looks upon the brothers who seemed to be killing him and thought, while undergoing terrible pain, you are doing nothing to me — the only me that can exist. Me is God’s creation. There is nothing else. How would it be at all possible that another human being could put a stop to His will? His Creation? If we think there is, we diminish God’s power. Of course that is the whole reason behind the course of our lives here. We believe we did the impossible, separate. Adam did it consciously when asked by God, “Where are you?” In spirit. Adam made the choice of evading the question by blaming Eve. (Herein starts the whole profession of marriage counseling!) Adam could have said “I made a mistake.” God and Adam might then both have laughed at the littleness of the thought that this could be done. And the whole notion could have been dismissed. Instead Adam makes it real for us, and we keep that one impossible thing alive. We surely believe we have separated. That is why we are immersed in guilt, and the need to do what we do trying to give our own guilt onto others. Jesus so wonderful says, “What God has joined, let no man put asunder.” That statement wasn’t just for the wedding he was attending. Separation from God is impossible. Guilt is insane.

Yes, we can live on this planet any way we want to. We can do whatever we want. That is a part of God’s creation. If we want to question His authority, we can go at it. He will always ask, however, “How’s that working for you?’ We need only open our eyes to the world we live in, which is a blood bath of incredible suffering, as I sit here and write this, looking out at one of the most beautiful and rich cities in the world. I can do that but I cannot think anymore that I can separate. Don’t misunderstand. I can act as though I’m separated form God and you. I can only do this if I think separation is possible in order to live with dissociation, cruelty and utter disregard for others, even though what I see is minds in bodily form. On the other hand, I can rejoice in the truth, along with the most empathy I can muster, this isn’t happening. God does not allow suffering. We want it, so we get it. We can misuse His Mind, but we can’t leave it. And in that we are safe, as we dream otherwise. Not because God sends suffering, but because we want it. We must want what we dream, for why do we spend such resources on killing machines, rather that healing machines.

The answer to Father Rhor’s question here, which I’m sure he will address splendidly over the next few weeks, is yes, of course, we can live with a generosity, abundance, fearlessness, and beauty that mirror Divine Being itself. We just don’t want to. However, our seeming wants only affect the work of the Holy Sprit as He would have them be. These capacities are not just a mirror of God’s Love, they are God’s Love for us. Having is being in God’s Mind.

We seem only to be stuck. God’s Will is, well God’s will. It cannot be opposed. Jesus is the only psychologist that ever lived here. With us, to teach us, without reservation, unconditionally. While we believe he performed some small miracles here, that is only the belief of an ego-centric mind. His miracles were and continue to be without limit. There is no order of miracles, he tells us. We think that some errors take a bigger approach. Yet, all are the same in magnitude. As insane as this world is, he exists to us. He does not need to deal in time as we seem to know it, but as it suits our needs. All will be correctly similarly, as the Holy Spirit knows all about everything we think we know. Everything mirrors God’s love. We just think there’s good and bad stuff going on. That is how we defend little selves from truth. Its all the same. God is in everything. There is no order to miracles. One seems harder to us than another to support our own defense against the truth. We must remember we don’t want the truth, we will, with our own devices, push it away, as a child who doesn’t want to wake up, holding on to his sleepiness, warm and comfortable. It is all the child knows.

As Jesus tells us our work is to see in each other what we truly are, created as God created us. The only way God can see us. That is what forgiveness is. Not what we think. Love is the only way to do this here, as love is reflected in forgiveness. This world holds nothing we want. “The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.” means there is no need to do anything here but lie down in green pastures and walk by the still water. Everyone is called to this, few choose to listen. We need do nothing.

Book Review: Jesus Untangled — Crucifying Our Politics to Pledge Allegiance to the Lamb, by Keith Giles. Review by Bob Pajer

“What if the greatest threat to Christianity in America was American Christianity.”

This is a quote from the back cover of Keith Giles book, Jesus Untangled — Crucifying Our Politics to Pledge Allegiance to the Lamb.

Giles writes a powerful book, questioning those of us who believe salvation can be legislated by laws the world obeys. Starting with early Christianity when the message Jesus left us was clearer in our ancestors’ minds, closer to his embodiment of that message, he takes us on a journey from early Christianity to the present day, where there are still many of us in our country who believe Jesus said that we should get involved in government to steer the process so that we can embed God’s message in politics. Many believe the founders of America saw entanglement as a threat to our fledging democracy. Yet, as a country, we have struggled with the idea of separating our religious beliefs from the laws of government. And this is I think sadly a Christian movement. Yet it is a distortion of Jesus’ message that implies the laws the world has made are not God’s laws. Obeying civil law is second to accepting God’s law, which trumps civil law for us as Christians. Theoretically at least.

I believe Jesus tells us clearly that the world is a distortion that needs our forgiveness. We are here to forgive, which is a reflection of God’s love, primary purpose and function of our lives, whether or not forgiveness is compatible with civil law. The present world we live in is clearly not a fertile ground for this, although God’s will is, well God’s will. There is nothing that can oppose it even in our darkest moments it will be. While it may seem so dark and the whole meaning of forgiveness isn’t available to us, He will prevail. The world is built on the concept of punishment. Forgiveness does not include punishment at all. Nothing more clearly demonstrates the anti-Christ but the meaning we have place on the one thing that Jesus taught in all his teachings.

Here is a poignant quote from Giles book that describes the underpinning of our coming to the current world we live in:

‘For early Christians like Tertullian, the very idea of a Christian Caesar was preposterous. For them there were clearly two kingdoms; and if one became entangled with the other, then both would seem to perform their intended functions. Even worse, the Christian Church, once entangled with the State, would cease to carry the cross of Christ and begin to wield the sword of Rome. The oppressed would become the oppressor, not only of the weak and the marginalized, but the other Christians as well.’ P. 68

The world that seems to have come to life for us is not God’s world. It is ours. We live our dream here, pretending to be living without God. We pay homage to our own projection of a sick mind upon a rather grand illusion. How could this include anything but our own ideas about Jesus’ message — a message of love? Our interpretation of that message suits our own message to ourselves: fear. And if we were just able to “convert” everyone to the cross of Christ through laws, we’d be less fearful. Using methods completely opposite of Jesus now becomes “justified” in his name and the name of Christ. Salvation becomes of our own making, our own plan, ignoring God’s plan because in the context of our thinking it simply cannot apply.

The opposite of God’s plan for salvation is insanity. The truth is there is no opposite to anything God creates. So, despite the suffering we experience trying so hard to replace Jesus’ teaching with ours in the name of Christianity, it is not happening. Welcome to the dream of hell. Love has no opposite; truth has no opposite — nor does a little of this and a little of that, a split mind have any affect on God’s laws. “Thy will be done.” means it will be done.

Jesus does not play games. Our games. He loves us entirely. He does not ask of us to do what he did, which he describes in a Course in Miracles as an “extreme example.” He does know very well how to impress upon us the truth, although we can take truth and bring it to our illusions over and over again expecting the result we think we want from his teachings.

I recently attended a community meeting in my town. The purpose of the meeting was to bring together members of different faiths to talk with one another to establish peaceful communication between neighbors. One of our State legislators tried to plant fear among us, our response was to confront it through understanding and communication. To love one another, as Jesus states.

As the meeting went on there were those who spoke of the conqueror mentality of Muslim people and nations. Someone actually said that. i thought to myself, of all the conquerors in this world we made, Christians are surely the masters of it.
Think: the Conquistadores, the American Christians who enslaved populations of Africans for hundreds of years and considered them ⅔ of a person, (establishing the electoral college to balance out that fraction with the rest of the countries count for elections) and continued to brutalize many of the Black race, while wiping off the face of ur non-God world earth whole nations of Native Americans in exchange for their land. Moving into the rest of the world, it was Christians who slaughtered 7 million Jews in Nazi Germany, or the President of the United States who commanded the slaughtering of countless families as revenge for slaughtering of 3000 Americans on September 11, 2001. Christians against Jews, Christians against Native Americans, Christians against Iraq populations. Jesus message is unequivocal. He would never find any of this as a part of his teaching. I told our Muslim friends at the community meeting, who seems to be taking on the guilt of their own brothers and sisters who acted with the same insane beliefs in their acts of killing, we do the same and that Christians are the most brutal religion in the world, if we can measure brutality buy the numbers. They were thankful, saying I brought a moment of sanity to the meeting.

Our local Legislator who was present looked at me in dis-belief. We are friends (perhaps not anymore). He said he would pray for me. It is so difficult for us to see our own faults. Jesus’ teachings and his reminder of God’s law of love, remind us. This is not an approach we have come to in our current politics and organized religion. Yet is is the very hear of Jesus’ teaching: forgiveness.

Keith Giles has written a wonderful book that touches the truth in us. We need his search for truth today in our world, as did the desert fathers and mothers who left the direction in the which the Christian church was headed. They went off on their own to continue the practices Jesus taught, while the Holy Roman Empire established its own brand of Christianity. The Church I grew under Pius the XII, the one “true” church, universal, and for all. Here was the distorted teaching of Jesus administered to the young. What I heard was he died on the cross as a sacrificial lamb, one Son of our Father, his crucifixion, due payment for our sins. Imagine that, the one who comes to teach us there is no sin, dies for them at the hand of a vengeful Father. Just what we have been waiting for. It is a captivating story that fits perfectly well with separation and the ego.

Our world is a distortion of God’s world. Its the best we can do, we suppose. Never thinking that we will lose it, desperately trying to save it. God does not do desperation. Jesus’ message is love, not desperation, not war, not erecting governments to enforce it. What part of love needs to be enforced by man? What help of the kind we expose in out world does God need? God’s response is we will awaken to His will for us, as Jesus demonstrates through his time here, that it is the Son of God, who knows only love, for He/She is created out of love. As Giles says:

“Much like handing a toddler a nuclear warhead capable of transforming the landscape in the blink of an eye, Jesus has entrusted everyone of us with the greatest force in the universe, agape love. Agape love is the love which has the power not to destroy a city, but to transform a renew all humanity from within.” P. 93

Our salvation is much simpler that this, however. Jesus came to tell us of the Sonship — the one unalterable, changeless truth — we are God’s children. He loves us and will not change His mind about us, no matter how stupid we get. In that we have all of God’s power as He would have it be. When Jesus says in his prayer, after establish our one relationship with God as His children, God then says that His will be done in earth as in heaven. This is God’s will we are told here by one of the greatest teachers of that Will. It can only be done. God is constantly messaging us, even in our insane dream world, which will end the moment God’s world is accepted. We don’t have to fight for it. Jesus did not die for it. His resurrection is what he instructs us to focus our attention on. He did not die on the cross, nor did he die for our sins — he let his body go to give his brothers and sisters a far more powerful message, one that we are to do the same under any circumstances, none of which will be a sacrifice. Jesus hates sacrifice because letting go of illusion and insanity can never be a sacrifice. We are the glory of God as brothers and sisters, no mater what this world may seem to say otherwise. That is not a sacrifice, but an awakening to what we are. This is our identity, which we seem to cling to in this upside down world to the death. We need cling to nothing here, for we already have all. It is our being and it will, as Giles says, transform our landscape “in the blink of an eye.” No need to call it another kind of love, it is love which has no opposites, no differences, nor different forms.

There are a number of things that caused me to leave Christianity as it is defined today. As a young child I seemed, like many to see through the distorted (coming from the word tort.) Many of the ideas I developed were based on my own insanity. However, the one thing I learned, not sure I was taught, that drove me away into an early life of mistakes and acting out addictions, had to do with my identity: the seeming placement of my self outside of teaching I thought I heard. What I heard was “Do not read the Bible, we’ll tell you what it says.” Christ had come. He was a part of the Trinity, which was in itself a mystery. One thing was certain, that I was not a part of any of this, except as a sinner. I began thinking, I’m too bad to be a part of it. And I seemed to continue to get worse. That is what I heard from from my teachers. And, they seemed to offer no way up and out, at least that I could handle. I tried and tried and it did not work.

Alcohol seemed early on to be the answer, as it evidently was for all my friend’s families and mine as well. If you want to be happy, drink. Happier, drink more. After all it is a Greek word for “spirit” and spirit is what I seemed to be lacking. Its a lonely world out there. So the Church itself seemed to lead me on a path of nothingness, which I learned later in life that’s, ironically perhaps, exactly where I needed to be. I could have done without the alcohol thing, however, and the massive suffering and pain it brings to family and relationships. A rapacious creditor it is. All in the form of a deeper and deeper separation in an already separated world. Love would bring me home one day and it did: the day I would discover the Trinity as inclusive. The good news is, I am a part of it as God’s holy Son, albeit still sleeping off the hangover of separation. I would return to the Kingdom fully as God’s son, having actually never left. What God has joined together, let know man put asunder. You see that’s God’s law, what in Heaven’s name would make us think we need civil law, or the moral majority to enforce it. Government limits the Holy One. Unless we want to diminish Our Father, which in this world we do, let so called religious do their thing separate from the civil laws I’m supposed to obey. Hopefully, then if they run astray of God’s law, I have a truth to enforce, within myself. And I don’t want that truth to be something some religious follower tells me is truth. We do not ask too much of life, but not enough. (Jesus’s words from A Course in Miracles)

Rejoice, I am in the Trinity and so are you. We must be, for it is the Holy Spirit, God’s Voice, the Corrector, the Holy Redeemer, who takes us gently home all together. Jesus here with us is our Guide who has gone before, no holier than we (making sure I am no holier than anyone else.) I don’t have to get good. He never leaves me, nor you. It is a much better experience, however, when I’m awake, which is “good.”

I need to nothing. i only have to get out of this world with a passing grade as one of my dear companions once said. As a matter of fact there’s nothing but readiness that I must do. Be involved in my own readiness, knowing that it is not mastery. God does that for me.

Let’s keep our government out of all this. It will always look for a universal theology. Its what it does. There is no universal theology. But governments will take up that cause and kill over it. There is only a universal experience. That is not particularly looked upon favorably by the government that has just been formed in the United States of America. i predict it will form itself around Christianity as a way of gaining more and more power to convince its citizens to act in ways not in their best interest, but rather in the interest of the political takers. I suspect our author knows this very well.

Everyone should read this book. It has some limitations of its own, but its right on the mark. How nice it would be to return to the early Christians who I imagine walked the talk. Love is what we are because we are born of it. Teach only love for that is what we are. (from a Course in Miracles.) We are walking on the road after a good days work, and one of us says, “Followers of our brother Jesus, who will lead our meeting tonight?” And one of our sisters speaks up and says “I will” My heart jumps a little, for i know she will inspire us one more time with Jesus message, perhaps the beleaguered man at the cave who rants and raves, curses and spits, and we tell Jesus maybe he should not be walking in his direction, which he is, we knowing our warnings to him are of no avail whatsoever, as he approaches this less than human figure (to us), and Jesus says just a few words, as he looks him square in the eye, “Brother, i know you.” The man is startled into silence for a moment, perhaps thinking, I have been waiting here all this time for you, brother. Wondering so painfully, who am I, my terrible struggle now makes sense no more. Who doesn’t have an identity, he says in that very moment. My choice can only be, heaven, my home with God. There are no other choices, as I have suffered for so long with this meaningless question, “Who am I?” It has always been my insanity. Not the question, for it is meaningless, but that I ask it. I see now this man, who must be a great teacher, has told me, I am just as God created me: His holy son, as holy as He, for He would have it no other way. And I know somehow this great teacher who stands now in front of me is saying to me with his eyes, “I am no holier than you. For God does not discriminate. “Because I will to know myself, i see you as my brother and God’s Son.” All in one instant. All touching the great truth that has always been in me. So that I may know. I am indeed part of and equal to.

While our brothers and sisters who seem to think government would be best work with Christianity, they are in a sense correct. God is in everything. But we must never think that everything is in God. He doesn’t do perception, as we do. Nor illusions. We do and we cannot ask of Him or Her to come down here into our sick minds to make nice. It is we who must bring our sick minds to His Light. Governments are just not in that business. My guess is its the last thing they would want to happen. For in the process of that they would lose hold of all of God’s children, who need only live by God’s law.

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Book Review: Patmos – Three Days Two Men One Extraordinary Conversation, by C. Baxter Kruger, Ph.D.

Review by Bob Pajer

“The assumption (italics mine) of separation is the great darkness.” His words hit me like a blow to my gut, but before I could recover he continued on. “Then, you see, we have to find our way to God. The Greeks offer their way through their minds; the Pharisees offer theirs through external rules. This is Ophis’s chief trick—blind us to how close the Lord is, closer than breath: we’re in him, and he’s in us. Ophis deceives the nations by one lie—separation. Our joy”—his face lit up like the rising sun—“is to tell the truth, let the light shine—and persevere the tribulation of enlightenment.”

As with most of C. Baxter Kruger’s book, Patmos, this is revolutionary thinking. I grew up under the tutelage of Catholic teachers who would often say, trying to answer our questions, “its a mystery.” And I suppose we were comfortable with that because it was easier to proclaim there was no answer to the mysteries of faith, given the upcoming at the time Baltimore catechism test. Yet one wonders now why it was so difficult to tell us simply, we are Spirit, God is in us, we are in Him, in His mind. As John’s tells us. Statements of Truth might have saved us much tribulation. To this day I have the damnedest time believing I am not a body, but spirit. Or, that understanding the Trinity is possible. That understanding came about by seeing myself in it, along with everyone else as the Son. John speaks of being in Jesus, but I believe he means in Christ, just as Jesus led his life to prove.

Kruger’s book is filled with a new way of looking at the teachings of Jesus. Well not new actually. It seems to me John proclaims them very clearly in his Gospel. Yet these truths were certainly contrary to what we were taught at St. Jerome Elementary School. No one ever said about Jesus that he, as the Son, found God within His own mind, as he became Christ who now waits for his brothers and sisters to find exactly what he did. That the Trinity was God’s loving response to our mistakes upon coming here, and staying here, to follow the ego’s plan for salvation. Kruger does not say in his book, the Holy Spirit is God’s temporary Voice, to communicate to us God’s plan for our salvation, a plant that must even, as we see differently from the ego’s grand illusion, time. Our response to God’s plan of course is we have a better plan, the ego plan, which is not based on love but on grievance and resentment, as it is carried out by us in the world.

Kruger’s book involves a novel story of a 21st century person who visits the Apostle John exiled on the island of Patmos. Its a fascinating story which blends John’s Revelation and Gospel with an explanation of the Nicean Creed, as John would would come to understand that and hope we would finally understand his Gospel and live by it. The Apostle’s major concern is that the separation amongst us, at best an “assumption”, we really believe took place. How can we possibly separate from God’s will? We think we have in the Apostle’s time here, and in ours of course by believing God is somehow outside us, others are outside us, as we live in a body that isolates us from other bodies. This is of course is the “assumed” separation we think we accomplished, feel like there’s nothing else to take its place, have lost our unity with our Selves, with everyone who has come to this world along with our distance in time and space from our Source. Jesus’ first words of his prayer tell us this isn’t so. It is “Our Father” we seek in all we do mistakenly, yet feel guilty over it, blame another, or whole races of people, to scapegoat the very guilt we can never dismiss: the thought we did it and God is going to punish us when He finally catches up with us doers.

Although this is not sin, it is close to what Christians think of as original sin. Jesus came to us, not sent by His Father to die, but to teach us how to live, in joy, peace and happiness, under a loving Father. Separation is a dream, as are all the illusions we experience here, thinking we can oppose God, have a will separate from Him and in the process give up our inheritance which is happiness. God’s judgment is simply I love my Son. We have not changed God’s mind about us. We are the Kingdom, His Sons and Daughters, still in God’s mind safe, as we find ourselves waiting, waiting and waiting for God. He has never left us. There is nothing to wait for, only our own stubborn desire to remove God’s authority from Him and have it for ourselves. We will waken to what we truly are, our greater Self, Christ, one with our Father. I believe that is how John would describe our being here, as does Jesus.

Much of Kruger’s book is about John, as he questions Aiden, (our author,) who in the story as written finds himself transported to John’s cave on Patmos through a white light vision. The vision occurs at the door of his home. Once they meet, the two get along very well. They have interesting discussions about separation and what has occurred since John left us. The discussions between the two tell an exciting story that reflect our human story as Spirit here in this world. The time journey by Aiden and it seems time moment in John’s life, our century, superimposed into Saint John’s time is carefully crafted to be real. While it is told to help us in understanding John the Apostle, we become ready for salvation under God’s plan for salvation. (No matter what we think of ours, which is doomed to keeping us in hell.)
In a later chapter, John adds fire to the revolutionary thinking. Augustine comes up in the conversation between he and Aiden. When John learns of Augustine, here is what John says about him: ‘If he believed that we are separated from Jesus,’ “St. John said carefully”, ‘and if he, as you said, is the Father of your Western tradition, then his ideas led the West to exhaustion, no matter how much he loved and knew Jesus.’ Of course, John has the upper hand, he really did know Jesus in the flesh. John goes on to say, ‘Perhaps it was through the ideas he passed on that the deepest log in your beaver dam was put in place. But do not fear; the Holy Spirit always works to redeem our blunders.’ The beaver dam is a reference to one of Aiden’s dreams, symbolizing our blocked consciousness when it comes to our understanding God, and our very blocks to Love. Blocked further by the punishment we bring on ourselves for our “sins”, in place of the pure love God has for His children, no matter what nonsense he is up to, and his final judgment: we are as He created us and He has never not loved us, His will for us is only perfect happiness, and that has never not been so. I would say, God just does not do sin and punishment. We do. And it is our log jam. It is a masterpiece of the ego, leading to death. John says later that Jesus would not back down from his love for the Pharisees, no matter what they said or believed, bringing the message of forgiveness once again to us.

Kruger, an extraordinary scholar, struggles some in his dialogue with our Apostle from the past. For one, I think we need not complicate the Holy Spirit’s role and place in the Trinity. Adam made a fatal mistake, thinking we could separate from God. We assume we have. Although, because we are dealing with the only Mind in the universe, and as we think we make real. Still, that reality is not reality. God only possesses reality. His Son does as well of course. However, we don’t think as God’s Son. While truly that is what we are, we delude ourselves in an impermanent made up world we think is real. In Truth, we merely dream a dream of separation. God cannot be separated from, for God is cause. We His effect. Cause and effect cannot be separated. Nothing can put that relationship asunder. This is not a wedding, which can only occur in our dream as a preferential, or special relationship. In fact there is no such thing as a relationship separated from God’s, in Reality. There is just One, our unity with God in God’s mind, from which we have never left. The Holy Spirit is here with us because of Jesus full understanding and perfect consciousness of Union with God, as he took on our only reality, the Christ, our true Self. Our false self is what we operate from in this dram of separation. God is the only reality, which creates the union we seek. There is none other. That reality is One. The Holy Spirit understands this, understands the ego self, and knows God, for He is God’s Voice for us, our only Teacher, along with Jesus, with one additional role, taking us home according to God’s plan. Once we return to what we have never left we will be One with God and the Holy Trinity will be, well, just Holy.

To all who come here, save Jesus and God knows how many others, that doesn’t seem to be a blessing at all. Out of fear, we hold onto guilt for what we think we have done. We resist within the dream as this guilt strikes terror in our will we think we can make up separate from God’s will. What should I, or would I do in God’s loving mind? Oneness, as it can only be, God’s love for His Son, can be our largest of all fears, because it is so threatening to our egos. The ego does not die easily. The ego’s grand scheme is filled with logic and under its thought system, foolproof. Thank heaven its not “God-proof!”, as Jesus says in A Course in Miracles. Well, after all it is made up, not created, although in the Mind of God, because there is no other place. Which is why it is but an illusion. Nothing real can exist in God’s mind outside of God’s own creation, the Kingdom of Love, all encompassing with no opposites.

The Holy Spirit will serve His purpose here as our Corrector: The return of God’s Son to Out Father, through holy awakening. There is only One God.  We will accept what we cannot change:  this truth.

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Love and Forgiveness

Love is. It is what we are. Having is being. God’s inheritance, which is love, can appear here in this world to be accepted or rejected, learned or refused. A kind of love for this, a kind of love for something other. Our world tests love and divides its meaning as it does everything else: in dual consciousness. Our world, the world God did not create, however, is like all duality, but an illusion, in many forms, an hallucination. Yet, it is by its unlearning of itself as a part of God’s plan for salvation, our ticket out of here, returning to “dwell in the house of the Lord forever.”  Love is not a learned facet of our humanity, for it will go nowhere it cannot be fully all encompassing and have no opposite. Like knowledge and truth, it is safeguarded for us in the home we never left. We do have pure loving thoughts here, however.  Most everyone does, as a part of salvation.

We can effectively extend these loving thoughts, as Jesus did on the cross in identifying Barabus’ holiness. What Barabus could not do for himself, Jesus did for him. We all belong in Paradise. Miracles are an identification of what is in truth natural. Loving thoughts are actually our only reality in the world we make up, using the fascinating ability to dream. Every loving thought is true, and being true, is eternal. Even in a dream. The Holy Spirit gathers these for us, and we do take all loving thoughts with us. There is no room for anything else. They are what we are, love. Love created you and you are still exactly as you were created. Teach only love, for that is what you are. (ACIM)

We do have a purpose in this world. Contrary to what we may think, this sole purpose is love, as it is reflected in the practice of forgiveness. “Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us.” — as Jesus states in the Lord’s Prayer for us. That clause, however, is a part of the section in the prayer that shifts to use of collective pronouns, meaning a horizontal shift, in relationship to one another, in spiritual practice. It is not a plea to God for His forgiveness. He does not forgive, for He does not condemn, an essential aspect of love. Love does not condemn. Only we do. Thus needing forgiveness. And why Jesus treated it as his primary message and our primary function living in this world. Forgiveness is synonymous with happiness. If you are happy, you are forgiving.

Bob Pajer

Forgiveness — the Only Way

We are “chosen in Christ before the foundation of the world” (see Ephesians 1:4).

Cause and effect are one in what Paul says here in this seemingly incredible statement. It hits our dualistic, separately contrived world like a ton of bricks. God’s bricks. As Richard Rohr says, reality is that subject joins with subject, there is no object.

Our world, however, by choice is based on our decision to separate from our Source, and disappear into the dual consciousness of ego, a thought system that grows upon itself like a cancer, splitting off and splitting off again and again. There is nothing unlike our unity in God’s Oneness, no such opposite thought system separate from God. What is one cannot not exist in The Oneness of God’s Mind where we exist.   “God is or He isn’t,” as Bill Wilson tells us in his non-dual statement in the book, Alcoholics Anonymous.   So when we think we exist as separated from God (actually we don’t think much about it at all), we can’t exist. Our egos do the magic: we believe there is existence apart from God, and in our mind so it seems to be, albeit with one unsurmountable problem: being a causeless thought it can only seem to be and  it is only love that can be extended into reality.

All ideas, like all thoughts, do not leave their source — coming under the same immutable, changeless laws of God’s love for His children, truly extended to be extended eternally and endlessly.   Love does not need to go anywhere to be extended. For Existence has always been and forever will be everywhere. While fear, all that the ego can make of itself, for that is what it is, goes nowhere. “Nothing” cannot extend itself, 0+0=0.

However, the Holy Spirit, in Her ceaseless labor in the field of God’s perfect love for us, reminds us we are trying to think apart from God and we are always set on the path of truth, whether or not we know it at the moment or not.  We might sense a kind of tug, one of thousands upon us, revealing that  something isn’t quite right minded here and we begin momentarily at least thinking in truth.  Yet, for most of us, denial sets in and we turn to the defense of the ego and using that defense, think again in fear, and again apart from God.   Our ego says if you listen to anything but it, you are in danger.  Its message is they’ll be unwanted consequence, pain and suffering, so instead of listening to the Voice of Salvation, we make up a false God, or distortion of God’s Law,  to “protect” us, to go with our false self, and live happily ever after in a made up chaotic kingdom full of sin, guilt and then we die, the ultimate unreality for the ego, bones crumbling into dust. Can this be what God created? Can this be His love for His Son?

Richard Rohr so correctly says, if we had just gone in the other direction, toward “being chosen in Christ (Self) before the foundation of the world.”, which is not the direction Adam took, nor I ten minutes ago, where would we be? However, we are exactly where we are supposed to be, Bill Wilson teaches, to help recovering drunks stay planted in the moment, now, for that is the only place, with God, where he/she finds the defense from the next drink — hoping it will never come. God is always in the now. However, God is in everything. There are no wrong places to be, just better choices. And we can always be where we want to be, for the love of God. The one power left to us in a dualistic thought system is choice, i.e., decision making. Choosing not to make 10 fighter jets in 10 countries in the world and diverting these savings to joint cancer research would provide enough money and resources to cure cancer forever. Isn’t cancer then our choice like all suffering in this world?,
Alas, again thanks to the Loving Voice for God, the Holy Spirit, we can’t stand the guilt of wrong choices. If you separate from God you will feel guilty and guilt leads to the ego’s direct path to its art of the grievance. While love holds no grievances, we do. Grievances are insane, as is guilt. But, both, we think gives us an out: while judgement, self-righteousness, condemnation are like super glue, binding quickly and securely, there is always the ego’s masterpiece, blame, which is its “proof” there’s something out there to threaten us. There’s something that will release the bond. This is one of the egos’s most special weapons. While covering its design for self destruction, it deflects our real fear that God will find us and punish us once and for all for, actually, what we did not do, separate.

Which is of course what Adam did and here is where he blames his lovely wife.  We can in fact teach only one thing in this world. It is not knowledge, for that is of God and we have made the choice of not being of God — impossible but thinkable. We can only teach Love, if we think of teaching being communication, which it clearly must be. Although it must be just as Jesus taught us, through the reflection of love, forgiveness. That is our only way to God. It is interesting it is in the final analysis, through the Christ in one another we get there on “a journey without distance to a goal that has never changed.” (Jesus’ words in A Course in Miracles)

Book Review: “Hearing God in Conversation – How to Recognize His Voice Everywhere, 2016 by Samuel C. Williamson.

Reviewed by Bob Pajer

“God is always speaking to us, and he wants us to hear him. The first time I heard him in my bedroom—and I really did hear him—I wasn’t looking to hear from God. I thought he was a hoax. But he spoke anyway because he longs—God himself longs!—for conversations with his family and friends.” So Samuel C. Williamson speaks to his readers in “Hearing God in Conversation. How to recognize His voice everywhere.” 2016 Kregel Publications.

Despite the “we” connotation, I share with Williamson the idea God wants a relationship with all His children.  That is of course as I understand God, dualistically.  Meaning I can’t really see or hear God, but I do get a sense of God’s presence in my mind, a presence that applies to everyone: of all colors, cultures, ethnicity, nationality, those who are in trouble, those who suffer, all who hunger, all who have made decisions that have taken a violent twist, those who believe they have a path to God (and others who don’t), all who thirst for Oneness with Him, all who don’t…….everyone.  God’s world, unlike the dream we dream as a world, is inclusive.  God loves His creation no matter what I see as the world. God weeps for His children and their insanity of leaving their home in Him — all thoughts in a separated dualistic world.  In truth, “God is, and we cease to speak.” (A Course in Miracles.”, ACIM.)  I think the “we” means we and God cease to speak, for speaking is a lesser and very limited form of communication.  God has better ideas.

The problem in hearing God’s voice is that He can’t speak to us. Not because He does not want to communicate, but because He doesn’t speak. Speaking is our thing, not God’s. Communion is God’s connection to us, and it is silent. We can’t bring God into our world, the one we make up to keep God out. Or, to try to get Him to come down hear and make nice. God is God and we are a part of His mind, where communication is perfect. We have chosen separation from God and there’s no way to connect with Him in a world that has made this choice.  And God cannot lower His power to meet join us where we only seem to be.

God is, and we cease to speak. My relationship with God is silence. Like the rests in music, which are equal to the sound in music. Take the rests out of Beethoven’s Ninth Symphony, perhaps the greatest musical work given to us, and there is just chaos. God’s creation needs silence, as a part of communication. We, His children, decided not to speak with him ever again, in separation and continue this way as long as we think we can have our way of specialness in a made up world of insanity.  Alas, God has other plans of course. God suffers our decision not to communicate with Him and lets us rest, like sleep off a bad hangover.

All dualistic statements, put forth, hopefully, to help us return to our original state of mind, which is non-dualism, pure consciousness, holy perception, and Oneness, where neither ends of this false dichotomy  mean anything at all.

The key to separation from God is duality. We even breath duality here: in and out. Nothing in this world is non-dual. However, what we think here, while dual thinking, can open our minds to non-duality, and our state of Oneness with our creator, a state that has always been, has never not been, and will always be.  We only dream otherwise. And God’s plan for salvation through the Holy Spirit is the only non-duality there is on earth, or in our dream of where we are. God will never come to us, we must go to Him. According to His plan. The Holy Trinity is set up for exactly that and nothing else.  In a Oneness beyond our imagination, in a dualistic insane thought system, lead by the ego, we think otherwise, but it does not matter.  The Holy Spirit’s role is solely one:  to bring us home. Again, us being everyone.  No need to worry, there is no way to exclude yourself, nor anyone else.  Because this is God’s will, it will be done. “Thy will be done, in earth as it is in heaven.”  Noting that Jesus says in his prayer, simply, “in earth”, not “as it is in earth.”  Because it isn’t.

We are in a state of mind, whereas if you are breathing in this world, you are dreaming a dream of separation. That is a real bummer for the only connection there is in the universe: we to God in unity with Christ and, while we seem to be here, the Holy Spirit, who does speak to us. In fact, He does whatever he decides, in order to get our attention, for which the Holy Trinity was formed, as God’s Answer to our decision to do something we, in reality can’t do, separate from our Source.  Jesus said, John 14:16, “And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever—“ Which means I believe, Jesus knew we haven’t direct contact with God, but we have for as long as we need it, His Voice, His Redeemer, Corrector in the Holy Spirit. Who speaks to us according to God’s plan, but through Christ in our own hearts. And by our own means we will hear His voice through Christ and know it is His Voice. The important point is that Voice is already in us. Christ and God are One, in all of us — every person on earth, and that is Jesus’ message made clear, we are, above all,  to love one another to hear it. To see one another as remaining how God created all of us, as a Son/Daughtership of God, Christ. We are all His Children in Him. Everyone an integral part of All. We will all return to Him, as we get our unified act together.  Which, again, Jesus means in his prayer, “in earth as it is in heaven”, a dual thought in itself, but praying for non-duality.

If we are not listening and being vigilant of the works of the Holy Spirit it is difficult for us to think we have communication with God. That is why the Holy Spirit focuses on our only function in this world, forgiveness, seeing the world of the Holy Spirit in each other. The dangers of thinking, wondering if we are hearing God, are well put in Williamson’s book. I believe if we hear truth we cannot not know it is truth, for truth is true. For all. God does communicate with us. In A Course in Miracles, Jesus tells us, “Revelation is intensely personal and cannot be meaningfully translated. (My italics.)  That is why any attempt to describe it in words is impossible. Revelation induces only experience. Miracles, on the other hand, induce action……….Revelation is literally unspeakable because it is an experience of unspeakable love.” I believe these are Jesus’ words. And he is laying out the roles of each part of the Trinity, that is One.  Jesus is in charge of miracles.  The Holy Spirit is in charge of communication between God and the Son. Should you believe you are on the receiving end of revelation, enjoy the experience. But I think we should all know we are “out of communication” with God, a blank spot in, as we perceive it, creation being the most intimate of realities, God’s love for His children.

Separation from God is impossible.   But , if we think we got it, so powerful is the Mind of God, where we find we can think what we want. Yet Life teaches us the consequences of our thinking, from which no thought goes by without an effect. Every instant of wrong-mindedness is corrected by the Holy Spirit, through our relationships in this world that we have chosen to stake out a life.  Suffering often is a part of correction, not by God’s choice, however, but by ours.

In 1987, I remember the day and moment when I awakened to a clear message from somewhere. I was just beginning my conscious intent to find a spiritual path. I had begun hanging around with a bunch of people who had everything I wanted:  compassion, faith, hopefulness, and goodness — and they were all happy, it seemed as apart of living a forgiving way of life.  Sin was not a part of their lives, although mistakes were dealt with by amends, change. At times they laughed irreverently, as though God had a sense of humor. They never took themselves too seriously it seemed, but they were clearly serious about Jesus’ teaching, although they never referred to that as such. They were truly about the Father’s work in their lives. I saw them cry with grief. But even that turned grief into love. There are no big deals , they would say. One said to me one day, “Angels can fly because they take themselves lightly.” Lovely, I thought. Their forgiveness practice was more about overlooking mistakes,  while holding a steely glare at what you are: God’s perfect child, within God’s plan for salvation, in the light because darkness cannot be. I simply wanted what they had and just had to figure out how to get it for myself. They were all beyond what I had known as religion. I came to know they all had a common way with a spiritual goal: a spiritual program which with their own concept of God, and above all they walked the talk. And should they miss that, they could always choose again. And I watched them do exactly that. And everyone was welcome, even if you had your last meal with as a bottle of whiskey and something out of the trash can on the street. Above all, however, as I stated earlier, they were all happy, an experience of happiness that would follow them into their darkest moments. In their words, “life can deal you a card at anytime, which you alone would have to deal with, but you will never be asked to deal with it alone.” Or, “God will never give you more than you can handle.” Or, simply if something’s not right, you will know, and you can choose again.” “Everyone is welcome.”

So in order to follow them, to have what they had, I decided to embark on a spiritual program. The first thing that came to me was, “read the Bible, Bob” So I bought the whole Bible on tape.  To follow through with my plan I made a vow to listen to one tape a night before sleeping. Starting with Genesis, I liked the “And it was good” part. Then it came to Adam and Eve, and what I heard was the so called fall of man — what I think now to be the fall of God as well.   Man and God have fallen together in Genesis, at least according to man. Man into disobedience, God into anger and condemnation. The latter to the point of kicking this poor naked man and his wife out of the garden, place two angry angels at the gate, and tell man you are no longer wanted here. I stopped reading and sadly said to myself, “You (?) have got to do better than that to have me go on with my intent to read the Bible and become spiritual.” And I went to sleep. I did not think about who I might be addressing my comment to.

When I awakened (good word to describe what happened) I hear a voice  sort of not a voice. Perhaps my voice saying some things. I was not sure I wanted to listen. But it seemed to keep talking and I did not seem to be able to turn it off. Deeply personal and very pointed at Bob. The voice told the following story to me as I lay there still half asleep. It was an intense moment but peaceful. In the best way I can tell you, as I don’t remember the words exactly, it went on to tell me this:

Adam, where are you? God was really saying, in the phrase, “Where are you?, knowing of course exactly where Adam was, in your relationship to Me?  Now Adam was still in the middle of God’s gift of Creation. He had it all, yet there was nothing to have. Having did not mean anything but Being. God gives all, I pondered later. There’s nothing to have. There’s nothing to search for, there’s nothing to become. We are. As He is. There are no words. Just an outpouring of love, which we cannot, and will never understand in a dual world. So already the ego god is right on the edge of becoming real.   for us. Adam is in God’s heart. Adam now makes our mistake, the mistake we make everyday we breath here. Fear enters his mind upon a decision to hide something from someone. He could have said, “God I messed up. Made a mistake. Temptation was too much for me. Sorry, but I know I don’t have to tell you that because You don’t condemn.  And perhaps laughed a bit at the silly idea that God would now stop loving him. Instead he hides some more, God finds him again and Adam makes the one fatal mistake he never had to make but thought he did because he changed his mind about God. This, now new god suspects his guilt. Calls it out and Adam gets really scared now and blames his wife. (At this very moment couples therapy started as a real business) As guilt entered his mind it did a few things we live with today. What I did, God will not forgive. God now becomes what he is not, and so does everyone else, all very suitable to the ego: a condemning and punishing something out there that is going to find us and kill us. If we’re lucky because the pain of separation is so great it is almost beyond most of us who feel separation. Adam of course senses all this and his blame of his wife is meant somehow deep down in his expanding ego, the answer. Blame the other person. I am never really lost until I blame someone else. Its enough I blame my self, but when I put it on another of God’s children, there are serious consequences to come, which we minimize, or don’t see at all. We think we think apart from God and everyone else. That is what dualism is. And there were consequences. Without a merciful God we are lost. We become God.

Fortunately God always loves his children, there is nothing we can do to change that in any way. God will simply not change His mind about us.

Not all of this was unfolding in that moment upon awakening in 1987, but most of it. I had to think it many times and have many, many more experiences to connect the dots and fill in what I was being taught. Butt the Holy Spirit, who I’ve learned with always answer, if I ask. That is His job, open to everyone.

So the story has come to mean to me, that this happened in God’s child’s mind, as it unfolded God changed for this human being. And it changed because Adam forgot to laugh. You can’t change God, although Adam got scared, as we do. If you do try, you will seem to change yourself, and all of your relationships as well. We cannot think of God one way and our brothers and sisters another way. Jesus message is simple yet always unequivocal. Practical and not esoteric. It is the message I saw in my friends. Adam thought that God would punish him so he brought God down to our level and made him into a punishing being who would take away our eternal connection to Him. A frightening thought and a mistake. I believe it is being corrected, but not by us. God put Adam asleep, it says in the Bible, and he was never awakened there. We I’m sure will hear somehow come to know how this will take place, as we let go and let God. The Holy Sprit is with for this purpose. As Jesus tells us.

Was it God who spoke to me that morning in 1987. Well, God is in everything. However, its easier for me to see it as one moment when I asked for something, something very beautiful. Although I did not know the beauty of it until I seemed to hear it. The Holy Spirit will answer every call to beauty and truth here. That is His function. He knows everything about us. Don’t ask me how that can be so, but it is. And he knows everything in God’s Mind, because we are there. All are called to this in their own personal way.

Our author has a beautiful message he tells us in his own way. Whenever I hear a brother say he’s listening to God, I have the deepest respect for the thought. No matter how he tells it.

I don’t agree with how it came, I do agree with Williamson’s message on the other hand, but not all of it. I doubt its God speaking with regard to Christianity. God is not a Christian. He is everyone. If we listen carefully, God is in every Yoga class, (see Appendix B, p. 208.) as well as St. Mark’s Cathedral in Seattle, WA and His message is always the same, forgiveness is your only function in the world you made and it is your only way home to me. I think God would also tell us, we haven’t done anything that will change His mind about His children in their dreams. The end of suffering is not a loss and when we all awaken we’ll just know dreams aren’t real. Not that we don’t suffer, but that is not of God. We could choose otherwise, but don’t. Perhaps He would also say, you are exactly as I created you and the only thing you have ever done that matters is love, for that is the only truth, even in your made up world. Love matters. God would say if he spoke, I will keep your eternal home safe for you. “Surely goodness and mercy will follow you all the days of your life, as these cannot be hidden, and you will  choose to find your way to dwelling in my house forever.”
Review by Bob Pajer ©

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