All Meetings Are Holy Encounters

I Searched and Never Found You

——until upon a day we we found ourselves together.

Thus, I can not lose you.  Nor, will we ever lose ourselves.

You were always there to be here, as God unites all in His Creation, just as It is, by Creation!

And there’s no way to project what is forever for all, to all. As an extension of love It is never yielding to the meddling madness of our minds.

We await only our return to the Power, so freely given, yet I ignore in my ignorance.   This Power’s  protection is my effort not to block it.  But extended, It fully encompasses  the whole journey of my everlasting love. It goes nowhere and has no opposition. just requiring my stillness in the Heart of God.

Let us be holy together, just as we are. We need change not one thing. For His Will is done in this One heavenly joining, a thing too that has never not been, nor will ever not  be.

Tugging, pulling,  pushing, pausing, protecting, parrying — thinking these need be, as I steal from time that never is — these being only the shaky ground in which I’ll fall to old ideas of the “love” I have learned so wrongly to fear, and now rather learn each day to think otherwise.

Love needs not my guidance.

It does need my acceptance.

I cannot give what I deny I have.  Lovely! it’s my time to deny this denial:  For we, you and I, have all.”

I am here to hear,  and heed Love’s clarion call, by moving away from what that call is not, through forgiveness.

It’s time to wash my hands and keep them away from my face.

Forgivness – Walking the Path to Conscious Contact With God as we Understand God — A Three Day Workshop

This website is a work in progress at the moment.  We are hoping you will find it helpful in deciding if you want to join us in the workshop, on line or in person, beinginning in the Fall of 2020.  Bob Pajer, BA in Psychology, National Institure of Public Affairs,

Fellow,  Ford Foundation Fellow, Fellow, Graduate School of Public Affairs, University of Washing, and Ann Marie Stanley, BA and Lecturer

Are you puzzled by thoughts of new or repeated thoughts of resentment or un-forgiveness. Do you wonder why it’s seems so difficult to get over the anger toward someone, a stranger or someone you are really close to?  Have you ever wondered just why to can’t stay in the moment, where you could see happiness; why the past seems so enticing, anger seems so justified at the moment, why the future is at times so bleak?

The reason for these problems for us is we are jusitifying our past to frame a future of the unknown that came seem quite scarry.  And if you just might be doing this right in the middle of your sobriety, or perhaps even a meeting you find it almost impossible to stop.  Like drinking, an important way.  Why do we ever rob ourselves of peace now buy fantizing about a past?  To make us dred the futhre, which is the ego’s major goal.  and believe me it knows exactly how to do this, pitifally, cunningly, and masterfully — but only if we let it.  Justifying one ownce of anger, turning to a resentment, robs us off all serenity.  Those in recover cannot stay there with on-going resentments, or un-forgiving thoughts.  It is why the Big Book tells us clearly, resentments are the number one issue of alcoholics in sobriety.  And it is in sobriety we take the first drink.

Do you wonder why forgivness seems to not work at times — after you have forgiven what you think is the problem with a person, institution or situation?  Do you think forgiveness doesn’t “work?”  Or, is there hope in the Steps to lead you straight on to their major acccomplishment in us:  forgiveness of our dark past in God’s hands.  As Jesus says in response to his disciples regarding this quesiton:  “Forgive seven times seventy.”  What does he mean?

This is a workshop for members of Alcholics Anonymous, practicing or beginning the practice of the Twelve Steps of recovery.  Its goal is learning how to achieve “conscious contact with the God” through the God of our understanding.  While the goal will put a smile on your face, a quickend gate in your walk, eyes that twinkle with joy — the goal of this workshop is clearly to demonstrate these natural affects of the Steps — you will see very clearly the primary goal will be to “bear witness to God’s love, and way of live.” Something we all share in recovery and find all we can do with these great gifts is to give them away.  When you finally learn how to give over and over you will find love and the conscious contact and understanding of God you are seeking.


A Loving Thought No. 10

Father, let me fix my eyes now on my desire to turn my eyes from all appearances before me here. Let there be no false god there to tempt me to turn away from not one moment in which I can see even the dark shadows of the un-past, the tiniest mistake of even a tiny mad moment denying me the opportunity to decide for truth once again. I behold the ugly, the hate, the mean spirit, the mask, the confusion, the severance—the legion of all that carry the heavy yoke of the untrue, so that I may see the Light in the darkening of Truth in my brother, as it is in me.

10-30-19. Bob Pajer

Truth is True

By Bob Pajer, based on an interpretation of Jesus’ words and my notes from A Course in Miracles

Truth is true.

Let it shine on me, through me, and to you.

I teach release and gladness. Or, I will teach sorrow and despair. Neither accepts a partial attempt. I need to be glad that we have been asked to teach the first, for that is what I will learn for myself. Should I decide to teach the other, that is what I will surely learn—of course to watch truth come again. For is truth relentless, and inevitable. It will never leave me in the darkness of my mistakes. We are blessed, as we bless.

Learn to be a happy learner—a really happy one. Who loves a sad teacher?

Be not content with nothing. You have all from All. Grab it and cling to it. It is your inheritance. You can find it unacceptable, but you cannot change it.

Truth is true. Its all there is. For it holds the key — light. The light has come. Don’t darken it with guilt, unless you wish to play God again, trying to convince all the Power there is that It is not salvation, but guilt is.

No form of human suffering fails to belie a guilty thought. That is because a guilty thought is an attack on God, and further separation. And when we try to attack God, or one of God’s children, the same mistake, we affirm our insanity, which is we think we separated from God—the impossible. For that one thought we invite our own suffering. Not liking suffering very much, we will blame someone, or blame ourselves. A vicious cycle dearly loved by the ego.

I am the decision maker in my time here in this world I made. The decision for guiltlessness is mine, as is the deciding for guilt. When I decide for guiltlessness, it is mine. Once mine, I must give it away to keep it.

The value of all this I just said is my restoration to sanity — learning to teach only God’s lessons here in this world, now. God teaches us. All things are lessons He/She would have us learn. Not to worry about things I don’t understand. More will be revealed, as I decide to let in what i already know to be true.

Let me bring peace. As a matter of fact it is why I’m here. Actually, the only reason I’m here. If I think this is not so, I am out of alignment with the Will if God.

I’m deciding something in every second in time, including time itself. It is my power to do so. “God, the world was a poor decision, as You know. “Don’t worry, “ God says, “That mistake and all mistaken decisions are corrected the instant they are made—for everyone involved, by Truth. My Will. My Voice. My Love.”

When I attack a brother or sister I will instantly believe attack on me is inevitable. This is the ego’s law, coming from it’s laws if chaos. Truth will not allow attack in any form whatsoever. Peace will always abide in God’s law, the only law there is.

When I judge someone, condemning myself or another for what appears to be right or wrong, I usurp God’s authority, God’s authorship of creation. Or, mistakenly try. God does judge. But only as follows: “Behold my Children, in whom I am well pleased. You are as I created you.” Unless we believe this, now, we will continue to search, until we learn there us no search where upon we will find what we are looking for, as we look on our own, without God.

“Father, I am here only to be truly, helpful. How do You want me to see this situation, accepting what I am, Love!?”

Replace darkness with light. You can. Just ask “What is Your will for me, Father.” You will recognize your will.

Darkness has no power, other than in your perception, which retains the power of choice until we are able to see. See there is no choice, for love excludes all choices. And God is love.

As you grow in Holy Perception, and you will, it will become more and more, impossible to see or dream of darkness.

Guiltnessness forms my invulnerability, beyond form.

God is the only Cause.

The causeless cannot be. When I fully learn this one thing I will know everything, for knowledge is true.

Deny what is causeless. That’s a worthy use of something I have well practiced, denial.

I cannot make decisions on my own. Whatever I decide I decide for every one. Every decision you make is for the Sonship.

Guilt is not a virtue. Nor is shame, which is a form of guilt, which is fear. Don’t listen to your ego on this subject, nor on anything for that matter.

If you seek love outside yourself you can be certain you are perceiving hatred within, and are afraid of it. My dear brother/sister, there is nothing out there. We are in here together in union with Our Father.

Beyond Seeing – A Psalm

I seem to know. Yet I don’t. Knowledge is protected from my egoistic mind. I think sometimes when I feel like I’m on top of things I make up, I’m surely not. When I see myself in poverty, however, I am likely to welcome Truth. My heart soars at the idea my having is my very being, always in Your Heart, Father: The Kingdom, now. My life is only sad and unmanageable when I believe stuff I made up without You, Father. I have made a world of sin and guilt. You, dear Father have created a Heaven where I’m forever welcome. It’s not a place I think I can play my ego’s games and prove to my self, that at its hand I die, not a place I can play the game of deprivation: sickness, attack and littleness, determined to prove at least one thing: that I see. I Imagine, I think I actually know through the seeing of eyes that don’t see. Knowledge cannot be in the hands of a life that thinks it sees with eyes that cannot see; ears that cannot hear. My solution to this is always to sacrifice Life. I will willingly die for one sacrifice. Death, dear Father. This is not your will! You will only that Your Son live, as You created me. Quiet my mind, Father that I may hear your calling—Your ancient song you sing to me with every breath I take and every encounter I have with a brother or sister. Thy Kingdom come. Thy will be done. Let this song be my aria to all my my brothers and sisters here. We know not what we say, yet I do know this one thing: When I listen I can hear beyond our voices, we sing the greatest melody we cannot help but sing here and in heaven: we are One, in unity with our Holy Father. Amen.

Bob Pajer


Book Review: Stations of the Cosmic Christ, by Matthew Fox and Bishop Mark Andrus. Review by Bob Pajer

Mathew Fox is surely one of the greater thinkers in our times.  His ideas are forward, bold, fearless, searching and inspiring.  “Stations of the Cosmic Christ” by Fox and Bishop Marc Andrus won’t disappointment in any of these lofty achievements, nor Joanna Macy’s cover comment on the book, “…It celebrates the sacred at the heart of the universe.”

There is no universal theology, but there is a universal experience Jesus tells us in A Course in Miracles.  I’m sure “Stations of the Cosmic Christ” demonstrates this message from Jesus.  Christ is in us, all of us.  No matter what our eyes or ears seem to tell us.  Trapped in an ego mind, however, which is what the made up world is, is aimed at the maintaining of the bondage of self.  We really have no chance of making the world a better place by hoping that somehow we’ll finally get it right doing the same things over and over again, after which God in cosmic love demonstrates again and again: man has no will or mind, or anything really, separate from its Source, God if you will.  We are one and only as One do we awaken to the connection we have in Great Unity with God.  Christ is the path to this, and the only path, albeit under other names.  Jesus came to tell us and demonstrate this one truth, ever reminding us there’s no way to God except through Christ, our true identity.  His message also tells us this practically achieved by us the oneness of the forgiving thought, upon letting go of all un-forgiving thouths.   

One of the adventures of Fox’s book is that we are invited to believe in the Oneness of the Spirit in us, Christians call Christ. The name is not what is important, but the function of our lives in relation to it is.  Our brothers and sisters in this place we seem to live all have the same interest and because this is irrevocably true, my interests cannot be seen as more or less than yours. 

There is a truly remarkable Martin Luther King quote in “Stations of the Cosmic Christ” which I will carry with me always as a reminder about what is true in this world, often different than what I see: 

“Evil may so shape events that Caesar will occupy a palace and Christ a cross, but that same Christ arose and split history into A.D. and B. C., so that even the life of Caesar must be dated by his name.  Yes the arc of the moral  universe is long, but it bends toward justice.  There is something in the universe which justifies William Cullen Bryant in saying, ‘Truth crushed to earth will rise again.’”  p. 98

And a later quote by Buckminster Fuller:  “…The Ascension event is reminding us that the Christ presence is felt in the furthest reaches of the universe.  We are not just dwellers in our little villages on the modest planet; we share in the cosmic events and we carry the Cosmic Christ within us — the very ‘fullness of the one who fills the universe in all its parts.”   p. 144.  Thus the forgiveness Jesus teaches us is a cosmic event. 

Enjoy this book.  It is a masterpiece in our readiness for return to the Kingdom and not to dwell on our identity with religions’ negative  interpretation of the crucifixion, but to live the message of promise:  Viewing Jeus’ Resurrection in our lives through Christ.    

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Our Journey Home -“A Journey Without Distance to a Goal That Has Never Changed.” — An Interpretation From A Course in Miracles, by Bob Pajer

We are “chosen in Christ before the foundation of the world” (see Ephesians 1:4).

Cause and effect are one in what Paul says here in this seemingly incredible statement. It hits our dualistic, separately contrived world like a ton of bricks. God’s. As Richard Rohr says, reality is:  subject joins with subject, there is no object.  A heady thought, but true.  Our Cause and effect relationship with God is almost that Cause and effect are the same.

Our world, however, by choice is based on our decision to separate from our Source, and disappear into the dual consciousness of ego, a thought system that grows upon itself like a cancer, splitting off and splitting off again and again. Yet there is nothing unlike our unique unity in God’s Oneness, no such opposite thought system separate from God. Such a thought cannot not exist in The Oneness of God’s Mind where we exist. Such a likeness, in reality, can’t happen. “God is or He isn’t,” as Bill Wilson tells us in his non-dual statement on the exisitence of God, or Power greter than ourselves.  So we think we exist, but actually as separated from God, can’t exist. Our egos do the magic: we believe there is existence apart from God, and in our mind so it seems to be, albeit with one unsurmountable problem: it can only seem to be, it can’t go anywhere, for it is only love that can be extended into reality. And, all ideas, like all thoughts, do not leave their source — coming under the same immutable, changeless laws of God’s, including love for His children, truly extended to be extended eternally. Love does not need to go anywhere to be extended. For Existence has always been and forever will be everywhere. While fear, all that the ego’s source of its own being, for that is what it is, goes nowhere. “Nothing” cannot extend itself, 0+0=0.

However, the Holy Spirit, in Her ceaseless labor of God’s and His perfect love for us reminds us we are trying to think apart from God — a tug, one of thousands upon us, that something isn’t quite right-minded here. And we begin momentarily thinking in truth; yet, for most of us, we turn to defense of the ego and using that defense, think again in fear, apart from God: maybe they’ll be unwanted consequence, pain and suffering, so instead of listening to the Voice of Salvation, we make up a false God to “protect” us, to go with our false self, and live happily ever after in a made up chaotic kingdom full of sin, guilt, death and decay.  Death is always the ego’s ultimate unreality for the ego, bones crumbling into dust. Can this be what God created? Can this be His love for His Son? Deep in everyone here is God’s voice singing a different melody:  one of peace, loviness, connectidness and forgivness.  For-giveness simply meaning we have it all, each and every one of us, surging into a Oneness that can only connect to God.   There is no separation.

Richard Rohr so correctly says, if we had just gone in the other direction, toward “being chosen in Christ (Self) before the foundation of the world.”, which is not the direction Adam took, (nor I ten minutes ago,) where would we be? However, we are exactly where we are supposed to be based on our readiness to return home, Bill Wilson teaches, to help recovering drunks stay planted in the moment, now, for that is the only place, with God, where he/she finds the defense from the next drink — hoping it will never come.

One day at a time.  God is always in the now. However, God is in everything. There are no wrong places to be, just better choices. And we can always be where we want to be, for the love of God. The one power left to us in a dualistic thought system is choice, i.e., decision making. Choosing not to make 10 fighter jets in 10 countries in the world and diverting these savings to joint cancer research would provide enough resources to cure cancer forever. Isn’t cancer then our choice like all suffering in this world?

Alas, again thanks to the Loving Voice for God, the Holy Spirit, we can’t stand the guilt of wrong choices. If you separate from God you will feel guilty and guilt leads to the ego’s direct path to its art of the grievance. While love holds no grievances, we do. Grievances are insane, as is guilt. But, both, we think gives us an out: while judgement, self-righteousness, condemnation are like super glue, binding quickly and securely, there is always the ego’s masterpiece, blame, which is its “proof” there’s something out there to threaten us. Something we make up in our dream of scarcity and depravation, which is the world without forgiveness.  Our egos are contrived to release the bond, while making the bond to delusion and separation evermore secure.  This is one of the egos’s most most artful weapons:  the special relationship.  While God does nothing in special terms, the ego loves specialness and fosters it. While covering its design for self destruction, it deflects our real fear that God will find us and punish us once and for all for, actually, into what we did not do, separate with “loving” overtones.  Unfortnately, thes overtones cover special hate for the person we think we can love without God’s input, no thank you.

Which is of course what Adam did, here is where he blames his lovely wife, (the beginning of couples therapy.) We can in fact teach only one thing in this world. It is not knowledge, however, for that is of God and we have made the choice of not being “of God” — impossible but thinkable. We can only teach Love, or at least reoving the many blocks to love we love. If  we think of teaching being communication, which it clearly must be, we can teach each other by simple means:  forgiveness:  seeing in the other person, thus in ourselves, only what the other person can only be:  a perfect, holy child of God.  Since we cannot change God’s creaton, which is what this is, we are in effect than accepting the only thing necessary for salvation:  God’s love for us.   Although it must be just as Jesus taught us, through the reflection of love, forgiveness. Forgivness is our only way to God. There is no lother way.  And it must be done here on earht.  It is interesting it is in the final analysis, through the Christ in one another we reach our home in heaven, on “a journey without distance to a goal that has never changed.” (Jesus’ words in A Course in Miracles)

By Bob Pajer, September 22, 2016

Book Review: The Book of Revelation, (A NewTranslation) by Michael Straus, Illustrations by Jennifer May Reiland

Reviewed by Bob Pajer, NCTM, WSCTM, NIPA

It is of course difficult to say what John’s Book of Revelation is really about . Take your pick among those who have studied it.  My guess the Gnostics have it correct, only because of my own Gnostic leanings.  I and they  say that Jesus was a loving messenger.  His message is of love because he professes that only, his love, and the love of all of us comes from our creation.  I believe he heard only One Voice in his life here, a feat not many achieve as yet.  He preaches that we are as God created us.  God is love and therefore so perfectly equally are we.  Those references of the Oneness of love and the definition of God as Love can be found throughout A Course in Miracles.  Being a student of the Course I find Revelation to be difficult to understand because of the Courses’ references of itself to be the second coming of Jesus.  Jesus tells us this in the Course. The Jesus who teaches us we are One, as Christ, in union with God.  The best way it seems to place who God seems to be is by the two words: Our Father.  Oliver Wendall Holmes said that is all he needed to know about religious belief. 

A Course in Miracles takes this up with its main teaching:  to know who you are, see all your brothers and sisters as Christ, the One Son, the Sonship and only see him that way.  That in itself will tell you who you are, what we are all searching for here, being plagued by the thought we left Our Father for a world we continue to make up.  and fail to achieve peace doing it.  Who are we?  Yet our egos take us all around the battlefields we create to not find out who we are.  The world we appear to live in is not made to discover who God is as our Source.  As a matter of fact it is make by its makers to do just the opposite.  It is beleaguers us.  It is the root of all suffering here because it is based on unforgivenes,  by a whole people asking the question not to be answer, only to lead to more questions. The ego has no answer to anything, Jesus tells us in the Course in Miracles in his words, knowing they touch the truth in us that God put there.  Lots of questions and no answers.  Of course it will never have an answer to anything because it is a lie.  Lies are certainly not about truth.  Truth is true.  Lies remain, well, lies, much as depicted in Revelation.  The ego lives as a lie itself seemingly within us.  It has no intention of losing its place in our minds which are its hostage, never having us wander too far to realize we would be far better off by being host to God.  Jesus is host only to God.  He does not listen to the ego. Most everyone breathing in this world feels like a terrible thing has occurred:  separation from Our Father, a betrayal beyond words and thoughts, always there within us waiting for the day to strike out and finally create life. Guilt was born here, followed by death and the unknown. 

As to this new translation of Revelation, I can not tell you anything about its translation.   The translation is acceptable in my opinion, which of course is limited by my lack of knowledge of the subjects the author lays before us.  I find Revelation difficult to read in any form.  It is an ugly story, wasting one’s time in reading it.  The world is sad, old, and a tired place. It stumbles on with shear will power, coming from the mind of God which who is One.  After all we are the Power God created, but no to misbehave and kill each other.  No powers can exist before God’s Power. When men and women think they can oppose this with a separate will and power, we go to sleep and beat the hell out of each other.  Yes, “we”.  God’s children are not separated from one another.  That is the meaning of the clear statement of Jesus: 

Mark 10:9

What therefore God hath joined together, let not man put asunder.

King James Version (KJV)

I do not think Jesus was referring necessarily to marriage in saying this, but to all men and women.  We are eternally joined.  There is no separation among us.  Although the ego, we, decided otherwise and made ourselves into bodies, trying to make each a separate mind.  Bodies are not minds.  Minds are forever joined in oneness with God as their Father. 

When we oppose God we sleep, just as God puts Adam asleep in the Bible and never wakes him up.  So let Revelation be.  It keeps biblical scholars and theologians busy.  The ego loves to study itself, but it does not tell us annoyingly about the everlasting love Jesus has and always will have for every “single” one of us.  And he waits for us to enter the Kingdom with him.  To join him and become together as the Christ, the only Son of God. 

Lastly, I find the authors’ use of sexual activity appalling in the pictures throughout the book.   I could only interpret this as our way of thinking about sex.  It’s the one big sin, the one we can feel most guilty about.  Which is all nonsense.  The ego thrives on the insanity of guilt over our separation from Our Father.  Sexual sin is one its favorite forms of making us feel the guilt, which is why we neglect and treat each other with disdain:  judgment, condemnation and hatred, leaving little room for the forgiveness we must practice in the face of any form of separation.  Sex fits into all this as a false god.  There is no order of separation.  Most of what drives us to remain separated is from other faults, not sex.  Separation either is or it isn’t.  Our spirits, however can not separate.  We think we are separate, nonthless, that we in fact did it, and then feel guilty and enter a deep sleep in order to play out our true wish to separate. 

I cannot find any salvation or Atonement thinking in Revelation, nor in the pornographic material Jennifer My Reiland presents throughout the book, except the focus on bodies, which are separation itself.      


I received this book free from the author and/or publisher through the Speakeasy blogging book review network. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR,Part 255.

God and Hamilton ~ Spiritual Themes from the Life of Alexander Hamilton by Kevin Cloud

Review by Bob Pajer for Speakeasy

What if we really listened to Jesus and told his story — not the one we made up?  Well, we would wake up and say to ourselves, “What the hell was that all about.”  A fitting question, upon knowing that All has given us all, and only insanity would take us from a creation like that.  The world would completely wake up to what is eternal mind, God’s mind, first finding we never left, and then realizing, that was a bad dream, not a real choice after all, one being real and the other only seeming to be real, but now knowing only real is real and that we brought a story onto ourselves that that we know is impossible now and all the ways we look at this tired old sad world would disappear and leave our minds to be as they are:  only love, God’s extension of Him/her Self on to us, just as God is. Simply, the most and only most powerful existence in the universe, in the mind of God — no longer are we a sunbeam that does think is is sun, a droplet of water that believers it is the ocean can’t exist, and its insane to think so. 

Hamilton and all the characters in this book, along with the author clearly   have an awareness of Jesus’ message, as we all do. it is the one we hide, however, that keeps us in a world that seems to invite its own destruction.  We are so fearful of fully seeing it that all we experience here in this world is a distortion.  Think about it.  Jesus comes to us to be with us, to be a part of salvation, an awakening to truth and love, to help us come out of our dream of separation — and we build large cathedrals which all depict the crucifix with Jesus hanging from it, as though he came here and we really killed him. This is the mass neurosis that underlies our insistence we can build a world apart from God.  Forgetting Jesus real message is always simply love, as reflected in this world as forgiveness, the inevitable and only way to  return to God, through our own resurrection. 

So why do we keep thinking if we just get our world right, get things straight once and for all, atone for our sins, sacrifice, or become martyrs we’ll be something, we’ll have the peace of God. While we already and forever will be what we are:  an extension of God’s love for us.   

This is a splendid book, telling a story of all of us.  We fall here and we find that falling leads to more falling, hopelessness, suffering, guilt and more suffering.  We are separated from God, and in that thought doing what we believe is possible.  These are all aspects of idolatry.  We try over and over to somehow get it right and don’t.  It is why the First Commandment says, in its deepest meaning, we cannot do idols.  “the  shalt not” means we can’t.  Yet we do and do over.  Change the illusion to a better idol we have great hope will work.  We think that things like the Lease of Nations will end all war.  Or, a bigger bomb will end war based on more effective fear of one-another.  we continuously work on our concept of God, thinking that’s the answer, not remember Adam tried and got us to where we are.  (What kind of God would kick us out of the heaven and tell us we’re out at His hand, put two angels with swords to make sure we don’t come back the same way, and worst of all — we’ll now have to work for what we get. All, exactly what our ego wants, for us to determine who God is and how He operates, as one more idol among idols.  False gods we got.  Plenty. 

God does not play this way and Jesus came here to tell us so — and we killed  him.  Or at least thought we did.  The result of that false notion, comes out as more blame.  It wan’t enough that Adam blamed his wife for doing the fatal deed, we continue and  blame his death on some group, a group not the same as we are.  Projection is seemed to kill Jesus in the form of the “other.”  Blame is what happened to Hamilton and Burr.  They simply could not give up blaming.  So they engage in a killing game, one loss and the the other loses, fully intending for one to lose and one to win, a game we are so good at that we prove we can separate by losing, or winning.  Fortunately, God doesn’t play such game and nor does Jesus.   

Jesus teaches, on the other hand, that we cannot do anything that is not eternal love, what we are.  We think otherwise, that we can defile the alter God places in us, and really do it as a matter of sin.  Which Jesus is here to tell us otherwise.  We can’t  separate from anyone, because separation is an attack on God, who is not attackable.  Thank God. 

Hamilton’s affair and his duel are interestingly told about in this book.  We can one more time see the fall of God’s perfect son, so loved by his Father that his father does not ever forgive him, for He never condemns him.  If forgiveness were possible for God, so would condemnation and punishment be possible.  Either of these are of God and never will be.  We cannot change this.  We condemn, in our seemingly separated mind,  and think we must out of the goodness of our hearts, forgive.   In the process we don’t forgive we pardon someone who has sinned in some way, and feel ourselves more innocent.  Jesus on the other hand teaches us we can’t sin, but when we think we sin, pardoning someone is a hallow gesture.  And we underneath our actions in the process, we know this.  Forgiveness on the terms of this world, means that one of us is better than the other, or lots of others. In the great goodness of our hearts, in separation we pardon this person for what we think we never do.  The ego has long ago interpreted forgiveness this way, probably the moment Jesus uttered the term and its meaning as our lonely way to God, here in this world.  Not in heaven because there is no forgiveness where it need not be.  No in hell, because there is no hell accept that one that resides in the depths of our own hearts, known to be hateful and sinful — only a notion about our selves fortunately and nothing to do with how God thinks about His children.  We think we have other reasons for being in this world, on its terms, as a part of its unholy trinity:  sin, guilt and death.  Once in that pattern of thinking and behavior we have no way out.  God does fortunately:  in our inevitable return to love, our home where we have never left, not “out there” where we play the games we play and ‘die” playing them.  “The wages of sin are death.”  Jesus teaches us there is no sin and there is no death.  Did we ever ask God about sin or death.  I think we make up a lot of stuff. 

Jesus came to bring us home and he is doing that, on God’s terms, not ours. 

What this review has to do with this book is that much of what I have said here is discussed in the book, but  in different ways however — the ways that does not mention there is is no sin, because Jesus there is no sin. That’s not so difficult to figure out, but it does depend on our concept of God, which some might say is impossible to have, a concept of God.  However, the world runs on a concept of God.  I want mine to be true, and Jesus, as my inner teacher, miserable sinner that i am, is the only concept I want to listen to  There is no power but God’s, our Father’s proclamation is we are His only begotten Son (the Christ in us All) having a dream of separation, where we go all out to defend ourselves at all costs, forget about His love for us, forget about the fact that we are defending ourselves from God’s perfect hotness in each of us, forget that we are His love, we have all and are All with Him/Her, as long as we don’t leave His mind. We are not bodies, we are free.  Learning, or unlearning al the blocks to truth and God’s love, is our way home.  Teaching and learning are the same to His holy children.  What we teach we learn.  What we learn we teach.  Atonement, which we all need, is not sacrifice or punishment, but just recognizing we can’t be harmed in anyway and all suffering is a defense against this miracle of invulnerability within us all.  That is what Jesus teaches us here today.  It is also true that we are still afraid of Jesus’ message, for, as Christ’s message, it scares the hell out of us, as we perceive it to be.  Who stands up against an army of hate and says you can tear my body apart, kill it, but I’m not a body and you in reality have done absolutely nothing, but hurt yourself.  You can hang me on the biggest cross around, and nothing will happen to me, or you.  You’ll hate yourself, wallow in the guilt you already carry for ages, never smile again and you will nave done another.  Would my Father, and yours let this happen?  No, Our Father, doesn’t even think in your terms.  Our Father doesn’t know from bodies.  Only His/Her creation means anything.  And He/She doesn’t deal in the ephemeral.  Our minds, joined in a Oneness you can’t imagine, live and minds can’t attack.   

Also we don’t listen very well. 

The depiction of Hamilton’s life in this book is told slightly off track.  It seems to me an old story: fix ourselves, make the world a better place, find the right hero, sacrifice, avoid sin and prepare for death and a better place somewhere else (while trying so hard to unsuccessfully immortalize the life we live in a dead world.)  Jesus never ran for office, was hardly a financial expert, (maybe), never talked about having even intentions about  having a plan to change the world ,because he made none, as far as I can see. 

The crucifixion is quite the opposite from changing this world:  surrender.  He would not even make a sacrifice or be a martyr.  What a disappointment I suppose to those who were looking for someone to save them, smite the evil we suffer from here.  No, he says simply “Father, if is done.” the “it” being I have heard only your voice, there is no world without You, I came to get the attention of my brothers and sisters, so that they would see the battle is over, and You dear Father have won, because there was no battle. Who in their right minds would battle against the only Power there is, and the very power you gave them?   That, the message you gave me message is complete equality, even in a world that dreams otherwise, as we are all one, in unity with the only One, You.  There is nothing to fight, because we can only dream there is something we need to defend.  God’s children can only seem to be harmed in the world it makes up to include the idea of harm.  If we do not believe this, and only this, we do not believe Jesus’ message, today and always.      

Could we do what Jesus did?  Yes. He teaches us he is no different than we are, in that he was able to hear only God’s Voice as a single and only connection, an undoing of his own separation and Atonement.  That is what he truly did for us:  if I can do this, my brother/sister, so can you. 

For Hamilton and Burr to hear God’s Voice, as Jesus did he would have had to say to Burr:  “Brother, I forgive you for what you did not do.” There is no need for a duel, as we are here in this world together, knowing my interests are clearly no different than yours: our only purpose and function here is  forgiveness.   

Burr in return, would have to say, “Alexander you are right, I thought for a moment I could harm you because I thought you harmed me. I have a lot of hate in me, perhaps you understand that, and you became my specific, the special person I need to go on hating. I regret so much of my life and I will never be able to let go of the guilt in me.  Then  I made that mistake we all make here and the moment I thought I was protecting myself, I lost sight of the fact that in any defense of my self (my ego), I lose once again,  by attacking my own invulnerability.  God does not make what can be harmed — reflecting Jesus message from the cross and his resurrection, which is:  “teach only love, for that is what we are.” 

Taking steps in the opposite direction of where we stand,  waling away from one another in fear, then turning to face one another to hate yet more, aiming the and killing is clearly not love, and this act we do cannot be.   I see now its rather my own anger at myself for whaat i think I’ve done in my own separation from God and of course you.  But, boom!  “I had this strong terrible feeling that I am protecting my honor, as though it could be lost, and I could alter God’s perfect love for me.  He loves me, and there is no change possible in that. Boom. I will now lead the rest of my life, perhaps in more guilt and terrible suffering, not because I made a mistake, but clearly, I have sinned.  My ego has had its day with me, error becomes sin, the very mistake our Savior came to take away from the world in us.  I must be guilty, the wages of sin are death and I must too now die at your hand.  I recognize I could have lived at your hand, good brother 

All “Burrs” suffer over this same thing. But it is, like all suffering we choose to undergo, a rebirth into learning truth, there is no sin, only forgiveness and that there are only two things going on in this world:  love and a call for love.  And Burr, will surely learn as we all do:  my response can only be love, for that is what I am.  We will all learn this at a time where there is no time, when we are ready to see that we already have.  Our spiritual awakening is just that:  universal and required.  When we awaken to the fact it is our only real choice here.  As long as we continue to believe the “better way” involves a change in the world, and not in our minds about the world, we continue to do what we think will be sacrifice over and over, expecting a different result. (From Albert Eistein’s view of the world.)

There are great moments in this story about Alexander Hamilton, certainly an inspiring figure in our history,  and in the author’s words as well.  We “resonate”  because truth always finds its way into our hearts where it finds its likeness, our image of Our Father Who bore us into His own perfect love and holiness, where will also be found the tiny mad idea that told us for a spit second in time  we can separate from God and set up on our own account. Let’s give it a whirl! A kind of game of opposites, where following the rules, or not following them, leads equally to the truth, being, we can either have heaven or hell.  And yet there is no opposite that we can find to truth, whatever path we choose to take to All. 

Jesus has a wonderful way of putting it in his “A Course in Miracles:”

“All things are lessons God would have us learn.”

Bob Pajer

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