“I still have a tendency to think too well of myself and to pretend to be more than I really am. Am I always in danger of becoming conceited just because I’m sober?” Hazelden, Thought For the Day.

The real problem is I think to little of myself. Am I a child of God? Of course! Has God given me all because God loves me and everyone else as well? Yes, no matter what I think or do! If it were anything less, would that not mean God is indivisible or has favorites? Or, that He needs to hold on to parts of His love to maintain His power as One who has all power? Or, to reward some, and punish justice. When I think I must prove my false self, am I not diminishing God’s power in me? My ego always speaks on behalf of my littleness or grandiosity. And it always speaks first, in my mind at least. Seeing my self as less than, seeing myself inferior to anyone is a separation thought, which leads me to think I am less than, lacking in something. Although I frequently don’t know what that is. Searching for whatever it is is a part of the human condition, “search and do not find,” which has nothing to do with God. He knows where all His children are. He also knows His abundance fully shines on everyone. It is up to each and every one of us to accept it and let it shine through us.

“I am as God created me. I’m not a body, I am free.” A Course in Miracles.”